#vixxtoobomb

[lefentoniii]

I think I just saw vixxtoobomb in DC oh my goodness I should have said hi aaaaaaa

[ultcareyprice]

what happened with sandeul?

I don’t have the link to the post on me right now (it’s a little farther on my dash), but it seemed to be during and interview and basically gongchan was talking about how he was dressed in black and sandeul basically said “you’re black too” smh this is why we can’t trust ppl!!

[wontaektv]

vixxtoobomb replied to your post:girl group?? but I thought jellyfish was for male...

theres been rumors about this girl group for about a year now but nothing official

that's true but you never know. i hope it's true hehe :^000

[baebsaes]

I’m sorry.

And no one likes being attacked.

So I tried to make a joke out of it. I tried to ignore it. But there’s really no ignoring this, not really. Not when people want to make it an issue and I guess I’m the heart of it, arent’ i?

So I’m sorry—I really am. And there’s a lot to be said about sexualizing idols and whatnot, but I do realize now that what I did was wrong and I’m trying to change it for the better, I’m trying to learn from my mistakes, and I hope you guys see that.

And I know my side of the story never really matters—ignorance is ignorance, and I’m still trying to learn, but here it is anyways for what counts, for whatever you guys want to make of it

I was raped when I was 12, it’s in my FAQ, I don’t try to keep it a  secret because really, it’s become a part of who I am, and I know that’s not an excuse and neither is my being sexually abused by the 43 year old man who lived next door for the year or so after that because I was young and confused and he seemed so much wiser than I was, so much more experienced, so I listened to him, I trusted him and told him my secrets, I let him do what he wanted to me, without thinking too hard about it even if I went home and cried afterwards because he told me it would always get worse before it gets better—

And maybe that’s why I didn’t think a 3 year age gap wasn’t that bad, because 12 to 43? That’s 31 years.

And you can call me tainted or digusting or whatever you want, you can hate me and drag me and say what you will; trust me, it’s nothing I haven’t heard before. And that’s the reason, maybe, that I was so insensitive to sexualizing people, because it’s been done to me my whole life, so much so that I didn’t think twice about it before now. I’m not trying to get pity, just trying to reason things out to myself, map it out and see where things went south. And maybe this is it.

I have grown up with the notion that this isn’t as bad as it really is and maybe that’s why I flinched so hard the first time someone tried to call me out on my mistakes.

I was wrong. Maybe I still am.

But please, know that I’m trying.

Telling me that you hate me won’t make it any better. You have every right to hate me. You have every right to feel disgusted and uncomfortable.

Then there’s the issue of sex in general, why people are so adverse to it, and why the term thirst is so… controversial? Is it wrong to have a sex drive? Or to think about it, even voice what you think about it? And I know now that sometimes, it can be wrong. And there were times when I was.

There will be times where I still am and I’m asking you guys to help me because I might not be able to see it. I didn’t till I sat down today and really thought about how huge the implications were today, and I’m sad that it took me this long, but better late than never right?

It’s going to be a new year soon and I hope that I’ve learned if nothing else this year, than this, this because as much as it hurts me now, I know that there are people who suffer from the words that I say, because I know how heavy words are and the kind of power they can have.

But I want to know, where do we draw the line? Where do I draw the line?

Are fics okay? Are they not? Is it too much to fantasize? How wrong can thoughts be before they’re considered really wrong? When you put them out for the public to see? When you realize yourself that you’re thinking them?

What of writing and fiction? How do those things measure and quantify and when is it okay and when is it not? Do state lines matters? Country boarders? The age of consent in Japan is 13 and does somehow factor into the equation?

I just want to know how to grow.

And I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.

I’m. Sorry.

I don’t know how much this will mean but trust me when I say that I do really mean it. And I hope that people can see it that way.

[gachastar-archive]

tagged by soccerdadleo  thanks hun!! :-)

Rules: Just insert your answers to the questions below. Then tag at least 10 followers.

name: min nicknames: minnie, idk gender: idek rn i was female 4ever but now i think im like genderfluid demigirl or somthing sexuality: ace/aro height: like 167cm idk 
what time and date it is there: 12-2-14, 4:20 pm B) average hours of sleep: either way too much (12+) or way too little (<4) there is no middle ground otps: none like really intensely but neo is cute (i only do brotps tbh) the last thing i googled: genderqueer pride flag (for the gsa dance on friday) what i last said to a family member: "i miss u too!!" in a text to my mom one place that makes me happy and why: in my house theres this one spot next to the wall of windows in the kitchen. its kinda behind the kitchen table but theres a heating vent there, and its the warmest one in the whole house, so during the winters of my childhood i would cuddle up there in the mornings and watch the sky get brighter. some of my best and worst memories come from that spot. it was there that i found out dad failed his first yearly doctor test, and when he subsequently lost his job. yet there is also the site of countless gifts of food from mom, of reading good books and staying warm and toasty. when i get older and eventually move out, im gonna cry when i visit my parents and sit there on the heater again  how many blankets do i sleep under: either 1 or 40 favourite beverage: water!! :-) the last movie i watched in the cinema: i saw Dear White People with my teacher a few weeks ago it was really good three things i can’t live without: my phone/ipod, lotion, headphones something i plan on learning: im getting really into math and science now i wanna learn all this cool food science stuff and ive been getting the weirdest urge to read algebra textbooks for fun its weird i used to hate math you HAVE to listen to this song: Thank You For Your Love, by THANK YOU  shes a thai singer its such a jam

i tag: hyadain, vixxtoobomb, sojint, seolhyunswife, kimjimwoo, stopseokjin,(i have a feeling like everyone i listed has done it already and i cant think of anyone else)

if you wanna do it, do it, i tag whoever wants to!

[inkstandapp]

Can you share any of your blogs like with tumblr sideblogs? Like if you were running a data blog or fyeah you would need multiple admins, is that a possible feature?

Yep! We're going to have that included in our features.

~ Pastry

[crayonflop]

vixxtoobomb replied to your post: vixxtoobomb replied to your post: vixx...

my friend’s friends will be waiting outside so she said we could leave our stuff with them and they would hold it while we were inside so i think im going to go with that plan lol

ur lucky! im flying this 500% solo.......everyman for himself.....

[crayonflop]

vixxtoobomb replied to your post: “thank god the vixx venue has coat check so i can be all bundled up and...”:

do they have one at the nyc concert?

yeah that's the one im going to!