#vncrd's ask

[vincord]

ABSOLUTELY PEAK PFP BTW

Kiyo is so green and aro flag is so green too, indeed. Absolutely match. Truly a wonderful colour.

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I lauvvv the texture in ur art it’s so satisfying to look at 😋😋

Happy to read that you like it, anon. I would like my art to feel warmer and more homely. Like old strawberry shortcake postcards. So really glad to read that.

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I thought you were against the theory that Kazui is gay? :0 /noneg I remember your headcanon that he is aromantic, is it still relevant? like gay aro ig. sounds interesting

I've never been against the gay theory. I was against people who reduced Kazui only to his sexuality, refusing to analyze him and consider his character/behavior/lore (like people who reduce Yuno only to her miscarriage, for example. it's important to her story, but she's much more than just her miscarriage). Otherwise, I was quite chill about this theory and in any case believed that he would turn out to be queer person. It's.. quite fun to watch how some people have been indignant for the third day because he's not straight, and deny it for the sake of their het ships with Kazui and Yuno or Mahiru or any other random woman.

I liked aro hc and I liked to interpret "cat" as an aro song. but then again, I was ready to accept him in any way, as long as he wasn't straight (although I would have accepted even that. he can just exist and I'll accept him already).

He might still be on the aro/ace/aroace spectrum, I suppose, but I don't think about it that much anymore. I'm just happy with the way he is now. And that's all I need.

[vincord]

Sorry you're dealing with some of the most lacking in whimsy and consideration for oghers anons on the planet. Do you have favorites when it comes to ocs? I tend to enjoy all of mine but I habe periods and certain circumstances I face in life that cause me to heavily favor one more than the others. So, I was curious.

It's okay!! This anon is very funny and doesn't bother me at all.

I would like to say that I love all my ocs equally, considering that I have several settings with different ocs in them. So.. Yes, it also depends on my condition, what I want to draw, or what I'm interested in at the moment.

Last year, I drew a lot of art with Haruka because I felt really bad, and it's much easier for me to draw him when I'm in this state, because in the process of redesigns and refinements, I gave him some of my fears and worries (like my other ocs, of course, but Haruka in this regard the closest one) and it's much easier for me to transfer some of my emotions through him. When I'm in the mood to draw something scary, disturbing, or about dysphoria, I usually draw nameless because those are his main themes. Sometimes I just draw him when I just want to draw someone in a dress that I saw on the Internet. Almost none of my ocs wear dresses, and I have a pretty complicated relationship with that, but nameless is so easy to draw because he seems to be the only one who likes it. I've rarely drawn Mamoru lately, only in duets with someone, where he usually appears for the comfort and support of others. There are times when I would like comfort and solace myself, but it's too difficult and embarrassing for me to draw my sona, so I just draw my ocs, haha.

I rarely draw the rest, and I'm kinda ashamed of it, because, as I said earlier, I love all my ocs, no matter how often I draw them. I think this is more due to the fact that in recent years I have used them to convey my own state, focusing less on their own stories and relationships. But I will try to fix it. Still love Kasumi and others too. And miss them so so much.

But to be fair, I often draw small sketches of Kasumi, and in games where customization is possible, I try to make her exactly + part of the blindbox dolls reminds me of her <3 daughtr evr

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I DDINT KNOW UR OCS WERE BASED OFF OF V3 TRIO ohhhh that’s genuinely so cool… i was wondering why they reminded me of someone…

SVDJDHDU CRYING SOBBING Mamoru and Kasumi literally were based on Kaito and Maki when i drew them for the first time 😭😭😭 and Haruka was supposed to be like Shuichi, but, like, ultimate detective novelist. But now i think he's more like Korekiyo... Probably nameless only the original one.

I used to worry a lot that they were just carbon copies of existing characters, but now I'm not really worried about that because they've come a long way and changed over the years. But yeah. Still remember this fact sometimes. Really funny.

[vincord]

no more anon hate only anon care. i think you are super cool and nice and sweet from what interactions ive had with you and i hope things get easier for you

YAY anon care!!!! I'm glad to hear that you think well of me, but I also understand why people might be uncomfortable on my blog or when communicating with me, given how much I vent here.

Like, I'm emotionally unstable, ill, and a lot of really bad things have happened in life over the last few years, so yes, to some extent I can understand the whole anonhate thing in my askbox rn. I put myself in a vulnerable position on the Internet by showing emotions, and someone prefers to protect themselves from it, and someone prefers to play on it to see my reaction.

I know things aren't perfect, but I've never denied it, considering how often I write about my mental health and condition on this blog. I still feel like I'm handling this a little better than I was before, as someone who doesn't receive medical care, haha ^_^ Therefore, I really believe in a further good outcome of events and that with ups and downs, but I will be able to move on.

Thank you, anon. Wish you well and all good too.

[vincord]

hi vin!!!!

:) hihi, i know this year has been rough for you, but im so proud of you for pushing through even when things got so difficult. i care about you a lot, and im so glad we are friends. even if things get bad, ill still be by your side, ill always try to support you as much as i can. your art is such a big inspiration for me, and i enjoy listening to your thoughts and interests! i really hope more good things come your way, you really do deserve them, and have a happy holidays ^_^

KAFUUUURRRRR 😭😭😭😭😭 I'm so sorry that I'm answering at this only now. I've only just been able to finally read this and I'm going to cry srs. Im very glad that we are friends. I will repeat this over and over again. and one day everything will be fine and we will be able to exhale nod nod. Hug you very tightly and wish you hppy holidays too..

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[vincord]

Imo, you don't have to apologize for how you're being on your blog. You're allowed to feel bad and you're allowed to seek comfort and reassurance when you need it. I'd rather have stranger on the internet venting on one's blog because that's where one feels comfortable doing so than stranger keeping it all in because scared of being a bother. Which you're not. It's your blog bro, noone should dictate how you run it other than you. Also you for sure are valid for complaining about your life because working a full time job during the winter holidays (working a full time job period) is hell and I'm sorry things are hard for you and I don't know how to help which it's frustrating but I'd rather see you posting vent stuff everytime i log into tumblr than you simply disappearing from the site without a trace (also your art is cool so it'd be kind of a bummer not to be able to follow you anymore)

I've been rereading this since the first day I received it in my ask box and kept trying to find a free minute to fully respond. I still feel very guilty for turning my blog, where I posted art and creativity, into a collection of whining and vent posts. I really want to believe that soon there will be as little of this as possible.

The job sucks, but somehow I'm still alive, even though I don't get enough sleep.

and I'm really sorry that I write so often about wanting to delete my account. I just don't know how else to deal with all the chaos in my head and life. Thank you for your understanding and patience.