borderline kazui mukuhara

20+ y.o. | don't reupload my art, but can use as pfp with credit | proship, zionists, russia supporters, 0307/0709 (milgram) shippers DNFI or I'll block you, thank you

[vincord]

I don't have any name, gender or pronouns, but people call me Vincord/Vin. My existence is limited only by the Internet and people's memories of me, I don't exist in real life.

Also i have strawpage for asks and drawings, if you're too shy about it on tumblr.

Don’t repost or reupload my artwork at all. But can use it as pfp with credits. Thank you!

DNFI and BYF under the cut. READ IT BEFORE FOLLOW, I BEG YOU.

Dividers credit: [x]

Main tags:

Vncrd draws - My art, toys, figures and other creativity;

Vncrd talks - My thoughts and just random text posts;

Vncrd’s ask - My answers to the questions;

Vncrd’s text - My headcanons and texts;

Vncrd’s OCs - My OCs and everything related to them;

Vncrd’s shitpost - Anything that doesn't fit with other tags: photos, memes, edits and so on.

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BYF:

- This blog is dedicated not only to my drawings, and I do not plan to create a separate blog for this, as well as a separate blog for reblogs. Here I draw, here I share my thoughts, here I share posts that I liked. If you want to view only my art, use a separate tag for this.

- Due to the fact that this is my personal blog where I express my thoughts, vent posts often appear. I mark them with separate tags and after a while I delete most of them.

- Overall, I'm a pretty sad person who has forgotten how to be happy, think positively, and be interested in things. Keep this in mind, because I often say and draw sad things.

- Sometimes I get frustrated about things and I can complain about it here. This should probably be attributed to the paragraph about the vent posts, but that's exactly what I wanted to highlight separately. Sometimes things make me angry, sometimes things make me frustrated, sometimes things annoy me and I write about it.

- It's hard for me to single out the specific things I'm interested in. Due to prolonged and severe depression, as well as burnout, I lost the opportunity to get involved in things as much, vividly and actively as I used to. I like old things, sad things, things with a motif about humanity and love of life, things about loneless and isolation and etc.

- I'm always happy to have questions about anything and my characters, tags in any activities, and just chatting in the ask box. Unfortunately, due to work and chronic fatigue, I can only reply to messages after a while, for which I sincerely apologize. Communicating with people is hard for me, but I try my best. And I'm grateful for your patience with me.

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DNFI:

- Actually, just basic DNI criteria. - Zionists and Russia supporters. Even if you support it "jokingly" and it seems to you that drawing a swastika, "Z" or laughing at the victims is a harmless joke for you. I do not even know how to comment on this. War has never been a joke.

- Proship/darkship/procomdarkship/profic and other variations of this. If that's how you define yourself, then I don't want to see you on my blog. You are unpleasant to me and I have negative experiences in the past associated with this group of people. I don't define myself as anti, and I generally think that this discourse is too chronically online. Like, I have a real job. I'm not anti. I'm normal.And I feel a dislike for the things I write about in the next paragraph.

- Lolishotacon, pedo-, zoo-, incest supporters. The same as the paragraph above. I don't like you and I don't want to see you, even if you think fiction is just fiction.

- Kazui/Fuuta, Kazui/Mikoto and Kazui/Yuno shippers. These three ships are especially unpleasant for me and I feel only negativity and disgust towards them because of this big age gap + most of the fans I saw were questionable people and proship. So no. Don't follow me or interact with me if you like it or support it. This applies to most ships with Kazui due to the age difference. Not to mention ships between Kazui and children/teens.

[vintage-ukraine]

Taras Shevchenko and Ira Aldridge by Heorhiy Melikhov, 1963

Famous Ukrainian poet and artist Taras Shevchenko befriended the African-American Shakespearean actor Ira Aldridge, while the latter was on tour to the Russian Empire in 1858. Shevchenko did his portrait in pastel. It is recounted that the two men got along very well. While posing for the portrait, Aldridge sang African-American songs to Shevchenko and in return, the artist taught him Ukrainian songs. 

[nastywizard]

The portrait in question: 

Portrait of Ira Aldridge by Taras Shevchenko, 1858. Pastel on paper.

[vincord]

"Ka-.. Kasumi. Name. Kasumi. Her name. A-age?.. haahh... Mo-.. money. Kasumi like.. money. Nice colour. Are you.. Kasumi too? Similar. Never seen before."

"Ehh... Kasumi.. Do not like this. Colour. Put it back... Now."

[vincord]

"are you Kasumi too? Similar"

No, dear. It's just Haruka. Don't look at him.

[vincord]

"Ka-.. Kasumi. Name. Kasumi. Her name. A-age?.. haahh... Mo-.. money. Kasumi like.. money. Nice colour. Are you.. Kasumi too? Similar. Never seen before."

"Ehh... Kasumi.. Do not like this. Colour. Put it back... Now."

[aomitois]

rb and tag your favorite song that's not in english, japanese or korean

[morrayeel]

Deep cover

[vincord]

What tips do you have to stop paying attention to people in fandoms that make your fandom experience unpleasant? And "just block them" doesn't work, because I can't help but keep seeing these people in my friends and mutuals blogs, whether it's just a reblog or direct interaction and conversation, which makes me think about them over and over again and feel sad that no matter how often I block these people and "manage my fandom experience" that others constantly advised on this and other sites. I still see them. It doesn't work.

It's unpleasant for me not just watching a fandom tag or interacting with a fandom on a particular site as a whole, but just opening the site and watching my dashboard, because these people are still here, despite the fact that I blocked them. I would like to change my blog, but that won't help either, because I'll lose everything on this blog.

[vincord]

blocking specific blogs/people is not enough. I want any mention of them to disappear from the Internet altogether and didn't see them even from my mutuals and in their blogs AT ALL.

[vincord]

More adults should start sleeping with plush toys. It's always good to hug something soft or just have something that brings comfort.

[loveridden1999]

top 3 hobbies for young adults:

1. borrowing misery from future

2. carrying grief of the past

3. agonizing over the present

[vincord]

"ru/eng, ☭" And now tell us your opinion about the holodomor.

[kamogryadeshi]

‼️Russians strike Yagotynske for Children factory in Kyiv region: 4 workers killed, 7 injured.

Fire continues in administrative building at baby food factory.

Rescuers continue clearing rubble.

[polarmary]

I’m sorry….please not you too

[diserbillyti]

Anyway can we meditate on this, fellas?

Every time I point out that disabled people are chill and that presuming we are violent monster maniacs is a bit ridiculous, at least one fuckwit has to be like, "oh yeah? What about [condition]?"

"Oh yeah? Well my sister works at a special school and she gets bitten by autistic kids all the time!" Okay. I was an autistic kid who went to special school. Didn't bite anybody, didn't see anybody bitten. I also worked in SPED for a while as an adult. Never saw an incident. Hm.

Oh look, studies show that violence is common in pretty much all schools because exploring and experimenting with violence is actually really common for kids aged three to nine. But oh, we notice it more when the retards do it. Why is that. Could it be ableism. We discuss it as an especially common and problemaitc thing when the retards do it. Why is that. Could it be ableism.

"Oh yeah? Well I'm a psychiatric nurse and my schizophrenic patient punched me!" I am a diagnosed schizophrenic. The whole reason I'm not working any more is that I lost years of my life in psychosis. Now, follow me here, I never assaulted anybody, but I have been assaulted a number of times since I became ill, always with the excuse of "well he could've become violent." Hm.

Every single major study on violence and schizophrenia finds schizophrenics are not more violent than the general population but experience violence at massively, massively disproportionate rates. In fact, they usually find the majority of violence in these contexts is perpetrated by support workers, family members, and police. Hm.

It just doesn't work mate. I'm sorry. You not only look ignorant, you just become useful fodder to prove my point that ableism is a real social force, because you've seen some disabled dude on social media talking about being disabled and thought to yourself, "aha, this is a fine time to be ableist." Come on.

[bluntforcespatter]

also I was a "bites adults" retard and it was because I was being violently sexually abused. I was terrified of people. if you reached under the table where I was hiding, I knew what adults did with their hands and how much it hurt. I was a nonverbal screamer retard, though, so I was seen as intentionally pissing people off For Fun to fuck with them or whatever. as a like, 2-8 year old.

maybe if someone IS being violent, their behaviour is a RESPONSE, like ALL BEHAVIORS ARE?

but it's the inability to see us as people. dipshit tard bites because it doesn't know any better. meanwhile I was a trafficked, nonverbal child, terrified of adults.

even under healthy circumstances, if you're "retarded" (which I was considered! for a long time!) then people randomly handle you. and I think if you were small and crying because you were hungry or scared or overwhelmed and someone grabbed your body tightly, you'd fight back out of fear.

and I cannot speak to psychosis or schizospectrum individuals experiences, but I can say I sympathize in my own ways. a huge case happened here decades ago, and the man had a breakdown upon realizing what he had done. who he was, what was going on for him, all discarded to parade him as a ticking time bomb, a mentally ill man waiting to snap on a poor sane normal person at random. it's been used ever since to bludgeon mentally ill people, though I haven't seen the same for worse & more frequent crimes being committed by white collar white men!

i cannot imagine coming to lucidity out of a dissociative state, for example, and realizing what i did. that would be awful. i am routinely afraid of that happening, due to horror depicting my illness that way. i am afraid to wake up and see that i am the monster. so i studied these things in real life - what really happens? what does it really look like? is there such a thing as a senseless, random act of violence? (yes & it's acts committed by our governments but this is already so long)

i see these cases, these visibly traumatized people who are accused of callousness or lack of care because they have flat expressions, flat affects... like a trauma response. like a symptom of the illness they have. i sympathize. every time.

perhaps we sympathize/empathize with people who are under high amounts of distress? people do not typically commit these acts "for no reason". a trigger is a reason, stress is a reason, fear is a reason.

dehumanizing these people and mystifying their acts is all ableist as fuck. you just want to see us as unthinking, bloodthirsty monsters. you will never have adequate supports in place "to prevent this from happening again" if you cannot see these individuals as people with interiority. you will not prevent acts of violence by shoving us all into state institutions, in fact that will increase acts of violence occurring! there is no "solution" to this that fixes or stops it, because each situation is different. flattening it all as "mentally ill people dangerous we must get rid of them" is reductive & childish & inhumane. this all solves for nothing.

it's all the result of being unable to see the person first. just propping up a cardboard cutout of what YOU THINK their illness or disability looks like, and blaming it for whatever you need. it's dehumanization. and i must stress, if you dehumanize a violent person, you are sprinting AWAY FROM preventing violence. you are treating violence as inevitable instead of as a behavior that was prompted by stimuli/input/reinforced thought patterns.

[diserbillyti]

It's well-articulated!!

I want to say thank you for bringing up the random handling element, that is very much a thing.

Mate I once had a teacher from the SPED see me at a local store and without warning she grabbed my hair and YANKED it with full force to tilt my head back so she could look at me. My grandma saw it happen and was like, "what the fuck?" and she rolled her eyes and went "oh I didn't hurt him!" And y'know, she got away with it because being very autistic, I didn't cry or yell when hurt, I just kind of froze and shut down.

And this kind of thing is just normal when you're disabled, especially if you're non/limited verbal. No one ever talks about it, but your right to your own space just doesn't exist in the eyes of able adults, who see the increased physicality as acceptable because you "can't understand." There's a reason we're victims of violence and C/SA at such massively disproportionate rates and while I'm not expert, I think part of it must be the sense of a social right to our bodies and space, or a belief that we "can't understand," or knowledge that others won't take us as seriously when we disclose abuse.

[credensjustitiam]

[vincord]

ABSOLUTELY PEAK PFP BTW

Kiyo is so green and aro flag is so green too, indeed. Absolutely match. Truly a wonderful colour.