#void.speaks

[spicy-outer-space]

Ok I finally have a lot of free time so I'm going to do an ask game of sorts. Here are all the bead patterns I have, and the bead colours I have

Send in a pattern + some colours, and I'll make it!

You can also send in other patterns you want me to do!

DISCLAIMER! None of these patterns are mine! Unfortunately I can't give proper credit because I found these on Pinterest and looking up sources just loops back to Pinterest :( if anyone have sources, LET ME KNOW SO I CAN CREDIT!

[enbiosaur]

You ever talk to your parents about something and come away from it intimately aware of just how much privilage they have in a community to be able to ignore the racism because they don't want to think about it?

Growing up, my mother always called us "Lakota Sioux" and for awhile, I didn't understand why. None of our tribal relations referred to our nation that way. The ones who did were old, and even as they used it out of habbit I could tell some part of them resented it. They spat the word sioux out like it was hot soup. It wasn't long until I became intimately aware that it was bad.

One day, I finally had the courage to ask her why it always accompanied the name of our tribe when she said it. She told me it was just what we were called. I asked what it meant, she said it was a French translation of another nation's word for us and it meant serpant/betrayer.

This struck me to my core. It felt like I had been slapped across the face. "That feels racist I hate that." I said. It hurt to hear. It felt awful. It wasn't even our word but she absolutely INSISTED on saying it every time. And its only purpose was to dehumanize us. Why did she say it?

"Well, it's just what we're called, Alex, you're gonna have to live with it."

Literally the most shocking thing I'd ever heard her say. Wouldn't be the last time she straight up dismissed me for feeling the effects of colonialism.

And honestly, it tarnished my understanding of the impact of racism. It made me think it wasn't a big deal. I had to spend years of my life unlearning that and teaching myself not only how to recognize, but also how to combat and dismantle racism by myself.

Its so much harder to do alone, especially between the ages of 15-25 which is around when that journey started for me(I'm 25 now) and the only people I was allowed to lean on without creating more power dynamics that shouldn't exist were basically telling me to get over myself because racism wasn't a big deal. How tf is a child supposed to navigate racism with that kind of parenting? ESPECIALLY a child who's pale and benefits from letting it go and ignoring the core issue?

Sometimes I wonder how my mom justifies herself. How she feels confident that she's a good mother after EVERYTHING. It just really baffles me that she felt so entitled to shut my feelings down like that. Like what the fuck.

Anyway, this was a longer vent than I expected ✌

[spicy-outer-space]

Request rules!

- generally, don't rush me

- you're allowed to request more than one thing

Things you can request:

Bead creatures

Open! ✅✅

(Actively being worked on)

Bead patterns

Open! ✅

(Being worked on)

Bead flags

Open! ✅

(Being worked on)

Space drawings

Open! ⏳

(Slowly being worked on)

3D bead crafts

Closed! ❌

(until I can get bigger beads to work with)

Patterns

Closed! ❌

(Still might work on)

Plasticine

Closed! ❌

(Not being worked on)

[spicy-outer-space]

I will probably regret this later, but

Send me 3-5 colours of your choice in an ask!

Doesn't have to be too specific, just "dark purple" or "bright red" is good, but if you can say the name of it, go ahead!

You can also just send in an image for me to colourpick!

[spicy-outer-space]

Changed name! Still me! (Used to be @/daydreamerbitch

[spicy-outer-space]

Hello :D this is my blog for the arts and crafts I make (Main - @technologyvoid)

I won't be posting that much, but will appear time to time

I now have a Ko-fi here!

Requests? - Rules here!

Commissions? - not yet! But I'm planning to open them some time soon, hopefully

Tag explanation under readmore

art.void, craft.void, and write.void — pretty self-explanatory, it's the things I make!

oc.looks and oc.lore — also exactly what it says on the tin! For oc.looks, be aware that I often use Gacha Club and picrews since I can't really draw humans too well

yelling.voices — asks!

requests.to.the.void — what it says on the tin

lovely.moots — interactions with mutuals, including stuff I make for them, or what they make for me

progress.report — WIPs

not.mine — reblogs

void.speaks — unrelated updates and everything else

⭐ - things I'm really proud of!

[enbiosaur]

Just a quick PSA:

While I won't go out of my way to follow or interact with minors, this is not an 18+ blog and IS open to and welcoming of minors following + interacting, so plz do not tag this acct in NSFW content or engage with it in NSFW ways.

I discuss a lot of important aspects of reconnecting here and I have a lot of Native mutuals. If a young Lakota finds me here, I want it to be safe for them to reach out.

[enbiosaur]

Ekicetu

Hey folks,

this is my main blog. You'll mostly find things related to my general hobbies and interests here. I do engage a bit with fandom on this account but I have a seperate account where that is the primary purpose. Follow Enbiosaur for more fandom content! (on a bit of a hiatus and won't be as active there)

Things you can expect to find here include:

Queer term coining

Uplifting good faith identities

Voidpunk + Voidcore stuff

Kinning content(demonkin mostly)

Native and other Indigenous culture and history

Memes

Small amount of fandom content for a select few fandoms(OFMD, YR, Bly Manor, TUA, mostly gay shit)

Edits I might make in the future

I'm a bit picky about who I'll engage with on social media so plz keep the following in mind:

No pro vs anti ship discourse. Ik what content is and isn't okay for me to consume and I'm choosing not to engage with ppl I feel are putting problematic things into the world. That said, I'm not interested in putting energy into fighting about it.

Don't tag my stuff "q-slur". If you don't want your followers to be triggered, then don't RB my posts.

I don't engage with users I feel are feeding the bad phobias or isms.

Plz don't rope me into whatever discourse or social issue you're fighting for or against rn. I don't have the energy to deal with that at the moment.