#tw neglect

[pawsomekittyy]

quick personal thing I need to talk abt

tw abuse/neglect trauma

this morning, my step brother wouldn't get up, and I think it was because he didn't want to do chores. He did this the other day too, and I just did more chores because I didn't want to make it a big deal. The thing is my other step brother wasnt there, and my younger step brother and the other one, they dont really like each other. because my other step brother figured out he did this yesterday as well he started to get mad and he was yelling at him saying something along the lines of "get the fuck up and do your chores" and UGHH I got scared and got reminded of my trauma really bad, he was really loud and sounded just like my mom's ex who, when I used to live with my mom and him, yell at us and beat the shit out of us for little reasons or no reason, and a lot of times because the house was like a pigsty (we had dirty laundry piles everywhere, bugs and rats, garbage bags everywhere and garbage on the floor, HOLY it was bad), he would yell at us to get the fuck up and clean as he sat there with my mom not doing shit. He would yell at us just like that too to do things we had no experience doing because THEY DIDNT TEACH US. It kept happening they were both swearing and stuff at each other and i was so scared they would get me involved omg. I know I sound really sensitive but yelling usually gives me really bad memories, even if it is justified that doesn't mean I just won't get scared

[m4yday-m4yday]

no yeah its perfectly fine to raise a violent son. oh yeah of course its out of your hands silly me. its not like its someone's literal job to keep their son from punching and biting and constantly endlessly harassing your other children. when he, at thirteen, should know better than to physically overpower people. hes not a lost cause you are bad parents. you need to teach your kid to respect people's boundaries, youre not gentle parenting youre being permissive and NEGLECTFUL. you need to teach him he has consequences for beating me up! for harassing me every single day and overpowering me! take away his god damn ipad! do something! i need to feel like this matters and my autonomy matters but youre neglecting all of us and i have a bloody lip now as a result.

[oranges-rot]

guess im in a weird mood today, tw SA, CSA, Abuse, Child Torture.

I always see survivors talk about how hard they tried to hide it, and it becomes almost a universal experience of being abused.

but I didnt hide it. I cried and screamed and told everyone and I BEGGED someone to save me. As young as 9 years old, I went to a teacher and told them what was happening. They didnt care and told my abuser what I said. but that didn't stop me. I never stopped asking for help. its just that no one gave a fuck.

and now i feel kinda... alone? because everyone rationalized everything and never told, but I was in a state of rationalizing some parts, but 95% of it i knew was wrong and begged for help. It feels so lonely. and it fills me with so much guilt cuz like, i continued letting it happen. I knew it was wrong, and I asked for help, but i still "allowed" it to happen. so what if i did like it, and everyone could tell and THATS why they didnt help.

idk man it sucks.

I mean, he did find unique ways to abuse us, ill give him that. nothing that left marks that couldnt be explained away.

sometimes when i "acted out" he would turn on multiple hot hair dryers on the highest setting and aim them at "sensetive" areas. and im not just talking genitelia, but anywhere on the body considered "sensetive"

other times, I dont even want to speak of.

anyway yeah i just feel like a lonely loser

[papyrusknighted]

Stop talking to me. About the DAMN PROPHECY. SANS HASNT FED ME IN FUCKING DAYS AND YOURE BREAKING DOWN MY DOOR FORCING ME TO BABYSIT UR DAMN CAT BECAUSE YOU WANT TO IMPRESS GOD WITH YOUR PROPHECY. FUCK OFF I DONT WANT TO DO THIS SHIT ANYMORE FUCCKKKKK

[papyrusknighted]

for fucks sake can I have at least ONE brother molest me. Not groom me into a weapon for the prophecy. Not ignore me. Not throw me in the prophecy and force me to talk to their weird cat who’s also involved in the prophecy. Not leave the fridge empty for 3 days despite the fact that he owns a fucking grocery shop. Not talk to me exclusively to discuss the prophecy. Just. Molest me. Please. Thanks.

[lemon-labia]

wdym you see your own child throw up blood in front of you and you dont take them to the hospital?

[caffeinatedcaninee]

I genuinely need people to get over others not showering everyday. I’m sorry not everyone is able to take the best care of their hygiene but it’s for so many reasons and you need to get over yourself and have some compassion.

Sometimes people can’t shower or take care of their hygiene because of mental health and it stops them from being motivated to take care of themselves. Sometimes people have bad sensory issues around the feeling of water or smells in their bathroom. Sometimes people’s family’s can’t shower often or at all for any reason. All of these reasons are valid and honestly can suck.

For me? I often can’t shower, wash my face, or brush my teeth for *Days* because I am stuck at my neglectful father’s house. He keeps his room locked which is where the only working shower in the house is, if we do go in often times it reeks of smoke and it’s completely covered in trash, cigarette ash, and mysterious substances. That’s just the reality of it and it fucking sucks. This is my life, this is why I despise living with him when I have to and this is why my hygiene or things I wear are neglected and can smell.

Please, before you start to call someone gross, dirty, distrusting, or start shaming them for not showering think about this. If you see someone struggling with hygiene and stuff, maybe reach out to them and talk, offer them productions if they need it like deodorant, soap, period products, or anything else they ask for or say they need. Just don’t go “hey smelly I noticed your gross do you need help?” Just be kind to them and if they need it or ask for it help.

That’s it, I’m tired and trapped at my fathers house for the next few days and this is just what was running through my head

[0l1v3rdniwallmark]

my neglected ass has never had to experience shopping fer school supplies

i went to kindergarden and nothing else

its probably a reason why im so paranoid tbh.