“Maybe y---you-you should.” He wipes his nose, running with mucus from the aftermath of unearthing things he’s been adamant about keeping buried. For all he’s worth, Alan can’t fully match Perry’s smile, the upturn of his mouth made heavy by the weight of the things he’s just confessed. Things about prison, about after, too. It’s a heavy subject. Alan is hurt. Maybe not by the questions asked but by the answers he’s given, things he hasn’t thought about in years finally laid bare here in the open air before his unlikely friend.
“Sorry,” he amends shortly after, gathering his wits and setting his lower lip straight. “Y’know, nobody’s ever asked me that b---buh-buh-be-be-before.”
People come and go, they make small talk then go on their merry way. Alan doesn’t always want them to stick around, but the feeling of surprise, of belonging, is something he takes home at the end of the night. Perry has always stuck around, sometimes to Alan’s discomfort, but stuck around nonetheless. He thinks people like him can’t really look gift horses in the mouth.