The absolutely savage way Toji kills Satoru makes me sick.
Stabs him in the neck, rips his torso, adds multiple stabbings to his leg and finally a smaller blade right through his head. Brutal doesn't even cover it.
Trying not to cry at the Kuroi-Riko's goodbye and failing because this is the last time we see Kuroi alive. 🫠🫠🫠
The fact that Yaga let his frustration with this merger show through his choice of words AND that it's implied he wanted to frame it in a bad light so his students knew the true nature of it warmed my heart not going to lie. 💓
Suguru being the one to bring up the idea*☆ that maybe the girl won't cooperate and Satoru just accepting this eventuality like it's nothing to go against the whole "Preventing Master Tengen From Becoming Inhuman" deal.
*☆ Both in the anime and in the manga it seems like Satoru is responding to something Suguru said, repeating it while mulling over it and then answering in his own Satoru-way.
"We are the strongest." Ok I need to talk about this bear with me pls:
>They were the strongest while Gojo's level was basically 3 out of 10 of his full potential. Sad to think about it because the percieved equality was just a momentary fleeting illusion. (And it's going to be a huge factor in the spiral Geto goes down later.) Like the idea that they were the strongest becuse a) one of them was the Six Eyes Guy and b) they were friends so of course they were the strongest together, it couldn't really be "the strongest and his friend" right? I like to imagine that even Satoru insisted on the they because it made him feel less alienated and he was sure to have found someone who could keep up and match him.
>They say this of themselves but we don't get any external validation of this. I think it's important to note.
>They may be the strongest but going against Tengen seems a bit too much for anyone to achieve.
In conclusion: they were young, they were gifted, they were arrogant, they had no idea what they were talking about, Suguru wanted to help*☆ and Satoru went along with it because it sounded challenging enough because he also has a heart and would never force someone to do something like that if they didn't want to.
*☆ As I mentioned previously, he had to be the one to have this talk with Riko. For reasons.
The peculiar way Suguru reacts to Riko's true feelings, like a knowing parent with a child that finally comes to their senses. 🥹
Would you believe me if I told you I didn't have the courage to turn the page because I knew exactly what was coming and couldn't stand it? 😭😭😭
I am convinced that Gege decided to stick with that headband so he could draw it ripping when she got shot. @_@
Heartbreaking underrated moment when Suguru calls Riko's name in disbelief right after. 💔💔
Again focusing on Suguru's reaction to Toji being there like he saw a ghost, an impossible thing because he couldn't fathom Satoru losing at all.
In this tragic moment we finally get rainbow dragon, which I thought would have been more prominent in the manga because in the anime he's featured a lot (and in fanarts, fanfics and merch too.) 🐉
So, Toji basically slaughtered a teenager, attacked a defensless woman leaving her for dead, shot a 13-year-old and casually called it a day. Like, my dude.
*gnawing at own forearm* do you ever think about the fact that the only time we clearly see oda in the main series is right when dazai's about to go on a speech that presents bsd's underlying philosophy & driving force for the agency?
"An ex-hitman has no right to turn good." ...do you really think that? That's utter nonsense.
of course it's nonsense – because turning good is what oda wanted for himself, even before he wanted it for dazai. oda didn't want to kill; he wanted to write. of course turning good is achievable – because that's what oda was trying to do. for dazai, that's proof enough that it's possible. he believes it because oda did.
and then!! he keeps going!!!
so you want to be good. you killed people and you want to be good and you don't think you can be, because of who you've been until now.
What should one do when what they want is at odds with reality?
you do what oda did, what the agency does: you fight for it, because that's all you can do.
What do we fight for? How should we live? Nobody can give us the answers to these questions – all we have is the right to agonize over them.
all you can do is try to make it happen, stumbling the entire way, getting lost trying to find your answers. recklessly dashing through the gutter, like stray dogs caked in mud.
this is what dazai believes, because he's seen it happen – with oda, and then with the agency. the ADA gives out second chances to anyone who's trying to be good, to fight to create meaning for themselves.
oda told dazai to be good, and the agency gave him the opportunity to act on it. so when he's trying to convince kyouka that she, too, can be good – that she can join the agency and leave the darkness she's been living in... of course he thinks of oda. of course.
