I Caught myself rocketing down a very familiar negative spiral.
Since Hazbin came out I’ve been pretty meticulous about curating my online space and dodging the drama like an expert but then I unfortunately came across some negative content about Alastor and I went into spiral, interacting with more negative content about him for days and getting angrier and angrier.
And that anger morphed into worry about the upcoming season and what happens to him, how he’ll be handled and I just kept working myself up, more and more until I found myself no longer excited for the new seasons. In fact I started dreading them.
And that sucked because I was having so much fun in the fandom, interacting with content and enjoying the hype of waiting for the new season.
Call me overtly sensitive but as I’ve said, Alastor is a major comfort character for me. I’ve honestly never felt so strongly about a character and I’ve had TONS of comfort characters.
Thankfully, I noticed the spiral and am working to pull myself out.
Mostly because this has happened to me with other fandoms in the past.
So, I’ve been on a major blocking spree, and have gone bask to interacting with the kind of content that brought me joy.
It’s hard not to fixate on the negativity swirling like a cloud around the fandom, especially the deeper I get into it, but I ‘m not about to starting distancing myself from something I love because of it.
I’ve had to do it before and I refuse to do it anymore.
So I’m just gonna get back to my regularly scheduled Alastor stanning, and theory crafting, and go back to weaving on negativity like I’ve been doing.
