warnings: death, violence, guns, fighting, allusions to blood
a/n: i may have went a little overboard with this i just really liked this idea 😂
You wanted all of this to be over
The fighting
The division
The killing
You wanted it to stop
You wanted Christopher and Sela to give up, and join your side, ending the war between your sides
But if you knew what ending it would cost, you’d rather spend the rest of your life fighting
If it meant that you didn’t have to lose Zac
Christopher and Sela walked into your territory, and everyone aimed their weapons are them
The next words Christopher said would shatter you
“Put down your guns. Zac’s gone.”
You felt your heart stop
How could he be gone?
He promised you that he would be okay
That he would kill them, and end everything
And the two of you could be happy together, living out the rest of your life together
But all of that hope disappeared in two words
The world around you became a blur
Words were muffled
You felt yourself being pulled farther from reality
And then it all hit you
He was really gone
You walked over to them, not bothering to drop your gun
“Gone? What did you do to him? What happened?!” you screamed, feeling your voice break with each word
“We opened the airlock. And then he opened the door. He did it to himself,” Sela said softly
“No! You did this! You let him die! You killed him! How could you?!”
You dropped your gun to the ground with a dull thud before taking off
You had to get away
You didn’t know where you were heading to, you just couldn’t stay there any longer
You found yourself at the airlock
You stepped up to the window and gently placed your hand on the glass, staring out into the dark abyss
He was out there somewhere
You couldn’t get to him
He was gone
You were never going to see him again
The tears you’ve been trying so hard to hold back burst free
You let your forehead fall against the glass as you cried
Everything hurt
You loved him
You loved him more than you’ve ever loved anyone before
And he was gone
You were alone now
“We had to do it y/n. He was going to get everyone killed, I had to do something.”
You tensed up when you heard her voice
Sela
You spun around and shoved her
She stumbled backwards, but didn’t make any attempt to strike back
“Don’t say you had to! You didn’t have to kill him! He wasn’t going to kill us! He was going to free us! And you didn’t like that because it went against those precious little rules you’re so obsessed with! So you killed him! Don’t even try to make it sound like anything else! It’s murder! You killed him!”
You pushed her harder, making her fall down
You got on top of her and started punching her, trying to get your emotions out
Sela tried to push you off, but to no avail
She was almost unconscious when someone lifted you off
“Let me go!” you screamed
“No, you have to calm down,” Christopher said, not loosening his grip
“You- you killed him!”
With every word you felt the anger leaving you, because deep down you knew they were right
Zac was going to get everyone killed
All that was left was pain
Christopher loosened his grip and you turned around and hugged him tightly, sobbing into his chest
“I’m sorry y/n, we had to. You understand that, right?”
You nodded softly, allowing your weight to fall onto him
Even though it might’ve been the right thing, knowing that he was gong still hurt
