Getting out of bed is hard, eating is a chore, holding a conversation is nigh impossible. A heavy cloud hangs over me, pouring down bad thoughts like rain in a hurricane. The winds tear my umbrella to shreds, turning it inside out, and the rain pelts me like tiny spears, embedding in my skin and tunneling into my heart. You're worthless, they whisper, spinning lies that my mind believes. You're worse than nothing, you are one small flame in this world, nothing will make you brighter, you cannot be brighter. You will be drowned out, extinguished by the rain, it says. You will fail, and there's nothing you can do to stop it. But then, out of nowhere, another umbrella, a stronger one, takes the place of my own. Another light in the darkness induced by my own flame growing dimmer and dimmer. My flame is allowed to grow again, a temporary respite from the cold rain; I can breathe again. I know the rain will come once more, it always does, but this time I’m sure I can rely on others to help me rekindle my flame, to rekindle my will not just to be alive, but to truly live.
Hey if you could take this survey for my senior seminar class and share the link it would really help me out a lot! It's about portrayals of relationships in the media (mainly popular tv shows and movies) and it's pretty short and laid back, I promise. Thank you!
Also I’ll do blog rates for anyone who answers this and sends me a message about something fun you’re doing this weekend to cheer me up after I’m done with this group project <3
Rules: Once you’ve been tagged you are supposed to answer the supposed ‘92 truths about you’ below. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.
i was tagged by whennightchanges! thanks dear!
WHAT WAS YOUR
Last Beverage: water
Last Phone Call: my mom
Last Text Message: me to Shea about kissing him OOP
Last song you listened to: sugar by maroon 5
Last time you cried: hmm a couple days ago?? idk
HAVE YOU EVER
Dated someone twice: no
Been cheated on: no
Kissed someone and regretted it: hm nah
Lost someone special: oh of course
Been depressed: last semester a bit yeah
Been drunk and threw up: i hope to never have that happen
LIST THREE FAVOURITE COLOURS: blue, mint green, purple
IN 2014 HAVE YOU…
Made a new friend: yeah!
Fallen out of love: no?
Laughed until you cried: yes!
Met someone who changed you: i guess??
Found out who your true friends are: yeah but i've known for a while
Found out someone was talking about you: no
Kissed anyone on your Facebook friends list: nope
First best friend: i believe her name was devon? also lily
First sport you joined: gymnastics
First Vacation: disney world!
First pair of trainers: oh gosh i don't know
RIGHT NOW
Drinking: water
I’m about to: post this, browse tumblr some more, and watch some Game Grumps
Listening to: spotify, currently playing things we lost in the fire by bastille
Waiting for: imagine dragons new album, 1D to release more US tour dates, a job opportunity
YOUR FUTURE
Want kids: yes!
Get married: definitely!
Career: something with animals
WHICH IS BETTER
Lips or Eyes: eyes
Hugs or kisses: hugs!
Shorter or taller: taller!
Older or younger: well my boyfriend is only younger by one year so i mean as long as it's not a huge gap i don't mind either
Romantic or spontaneous: both
Nice stomach or nice arms: oooh i love me some nice arms
Sensitive or loud: both for sure haha
Hook-up or relationship: relationship
Trouble-maker or hesitant: i would say someone who's brave but not necessarily a trouble maker
HAVE YOU EVER
Kissed a stranger: nope
Drank hard liquor: noooo
Lost glasses/contacts: don't have any soo
Turned someone down: yep
Sex on first date: lololol no
Broke someone’s heart: hm not sure actually
Been arrested: nope
Cried when someone died: yes
DO YOU BELIEVE IN
Yourself: yeah
Miracles: mhmm
Love at first sight: not really
Santa Claus: no haha
Kiss on the first date: yeah if you're close enough and comfortable with that person
Angels: hm yeah
so there's no way i'm tagging 25 people and idk if any of you have done this yet but here we go
