#waitingroomdr

[xiofaire]

I love making these

[mmelusinee]

So something weird happened a few hours back, I was doing my usual shifting thing. Like, laying down, relaxing, locking my thoughts onto my waiting room and all that. Around about 10-15 minutes in I was in the state where your body is asleep but your mind is slightly awake and all of a sudden I was fully awake and it was almost as so my body started melting into the mfn bed? And on top of this I saw the faint silhouette of my s/o even though my eyes were closed??? This hasn't happened before so I js thought I'd share bcs it was weird asf (a very welcome "weird" tho 🙏‼️💯)😭

[xiofaire]

somewhere out there a permashifter needs to hear this.

[xiofaire]

When someone asks me why I want to permashift I typically say because I want to be with my comfort characters.

But on a deeper level I’d say I want to permashift because of how disgusting this world is towards women. Once I started realizing that literally every man I know has said something misogynistic I realized ya’ll were being for real when saying “most men”. I feel as there is no hope for women here, at least not with the way men are stirring today. Misogyny is so deeply woven through society that I even struggle imagining how life would be without it. I sometimes wish I could go back to being oblivious to this bigotry, I also think this is why a lot of women push back on feminism because it really brings an awareness to one’s self that life isn’t going to treat you the same. The sexualization in particular is something that really upsets me. The way movies and shows always have female nudity, the way women are posed in ads or magazines. It’s like we cannot be just human. The way everyone manages to point their finger to a woman every single time something happens, including women. Misogyny is so bad in our culture that even women are against women. Men’s needs will always be put over women’s needs whether its standards or medically. This is a topic that plagues my mind everyday and gets me incredibly upset, so much so that it’s my biggest motivation to permashift.

[xiofaire]

I feel so out of place in this reality. I see all the people my age having stuff going on in their lives (ex: having genuine friends, boyfriends, jobs). It’s not necessarily that I want those things but I just envy the fact that they have stuff here. It’s to the point where I don’t feel normal. All I can think about is having the things I have in my dr. I think that some people weren’t meant to be born in the reality that they were born in, I am glad the universe brought me shifting.

[xiofaire]

First things I’ll do in my waiting room:

- pick my face claim for my other drs

- eat food without feeling guilty

- enjoying the scenery, the architecture is very medieval (my waiting room dr is so beautiful, it’s another planet with countries filled with mythical architecture and creatures)

- watching movies and shows that don’t exist here

- reading books that don’t exist here

- listening to songs that don’t exist here

- watch edits of my dr and my dr self

- connecting with nature and wildlife of the planet

- having my own bathroom

- finally being able to rest with no worries (no college application worries, no family worries, no highschool worries, no political worries, no friend worries)

The fact that I will finally feel free, I can stay there for however long I want, it’s an eternal rest period.

[xiofaire]

I just wanna leave and never come back here again.

[xiofaire]

Things I cannot wait for in my better cr dr:

- no discrimination

- no poverty

- no rivalry between countries

- porn doesn’t exist (I feel like people don’t realize it’s a huge problem)

- nudity isn’t a thing in movies and tv shows (it’s a huge pet peeve of mine, it ruins a cinema piece for me)

- being a prodigy in playing the harp, piano & guitar

- my family has a lot of money so we can travel a lot

- I can eat anything without feeling guilty or gaining weight when I don’t want to

- being able to have the clothes on my pinterest

- being able to buy my wishlist without worrying about money

- having a friend group again

- having a good social life including a better Highschool experience

- pretty privilege

- my dream bedroom

- having confidence

- my cousins being able to visit us from their home country

- having a black Birkin bag (idk why but I want one badly)

- social media and media in general isn’t harmful

- being close with my half sister

- having another house on the coast of California

- having light green eyes

- going to my fav artists concerts (not having to worry about the prices of the tickets)

- and so much more I cannot wait.