[08-04-2023]
— This piece represents dissociation / polyfragmentation — as a term in DID/OSDD, polyfragmentation means being more fragmented than typical cases of these disorders. A common occurrence for polyfragmented systems can be to have several or many ‘copies’ of the same alter, that encapsulate different memories and mental states; there can be a version of an alter that doesn’t remember certain trauma, while another separated part of themselves does — that being one example, there’s a lot of different possibilities.
Take my advice and with a grain of salt, ask your friends and/or therapist for help, use your best judgment and don’t believe everything you see on TV — ETC — I just wanted to make this for anyone out there who forgets that the people you love are supposed to be nice to you. Stay safe out there.
Then your head begins to ache
And all the plans you made just break
For every dream you keep inside, another part of you has died
I was originally planning to make an animatic, but I scrapped the project because I didn't have the patience for it -- and so, I recycled the style and one of the assets I was going to use for it for a couple of little affirmation GIFs.
Something important to keep in mind about my art is that I tend to use JTHM characters more metaphorically rather than depicting accurately who they are in canon -- to me, Edgar is an asshole who presents as a nice person; you do whatever you want, but I personally don't like Edgar being shipped with Jimmy and/or Johnny because the dynamics I typically see him portrayed in as a normie voice of reason / caretaker to Nny or Mmy rings to me very ableist. I see him as the type of person to try and "fix" them for his own benefit, out of my experience with types of people like him.
I see people who relate to Jimmy being easily taken advantage of by the wrong people, like Edgar, because they've been beaten down by other people and want to be understood. Someone like Edgar [in my mind] will make you feel understood while treating you like shit. Sometimes it's hard to be able to see that you're in a situation like that, especially if they're the only person who has stuck by you.
If your partner is being overly controlling of the people you talk to because they don't fit the vision of you they want you to conform to, or if they aren't supportive of your dreams and who you are -- no matter how unconventional, alternative, mentally ill, or edgy you are, that's not okay. You don't have to tolerate being treated like that.
***YOU CAN SHIP WHATEVER YOU WANT I'm not the fiction moral police, so do whatever you want, this is just MY interpretation of these characters and their dynamic that I'm portraying for the sake of getting a message across through metaphorical figures.***
Here's a couple of extra little animations I did for the original animatic, and a couple of other extra doodles under the cut. I also made a playlist of songs that have helped me through my own toxic relationships and trauma.
10-11-2023
YOLO — This is an older piece from when the fandom opinion on zadr was a bit more divisive / controversial, even if not as bad as it may have been just a few years before I drew this; I just didn’t like seeing people straight up saying “KYS IF YOU SHIP ZADR” still around at the time…zadr is silly and nostalgic, and it’s important to just enjoy whatever makes you happy.
I originally started this sketch in the summer of 2025 — around May-June — and finished it tonight…I drew this essentially to say that my art and what I say stands only for myself and what I believe in; I’m not here to appeal to anyone who doesn’t get it, and I’m not going to be polite about it to compromise my values to make other people “comfortable.”
This piece is inspired by an illustration by R. Crumb; one of my artistic inspirations. The comic panel has nothing to do with anything, I just wanted to put it here because I like it.
