Starter for @warcraftingfox ! No happiness just suffering.
The drumming in his ears was deafening as Uriel's vision remained clouded and red. All he could hear was the adrenaline coarsing through him, the sound of heavy breathing. He saw bodies strewn about around him, each maimed and bloodied beyond recognition. The red haze fogged his mind, keeping him from feeling much of anything past a coldness that seemed to cling to his very essence. With the coldness came the feeling of numbness despite several of his own wounds decorating his body.
Uriel clutched his blades in both hands tightly as he wildly looked around the gruesome battlefield he had singlehandedly created. Seeing the destruction he had caused seemed to please the side of him he made a constant conscious effort to ignore; the side of him Arthas had praised in his most trusted knights. Whatever shreds of humanity he had left screamed at him to stop thus chaos but it was too late. The part of him that still cared, that still craved life, could do nothing but watch as he mindlessly slaughtered.
He couldn't tell how long this state of mind lasted. Ignoring his bloodlust for so long always took a toll on the death knight but after recently finding out about the fate of his sister and his niece, there was nothing he could do to keep it from boiling over and consuming him. Too angry, too hatefilled, too sad.
When Uriel'thos finally did come down from this state of mind, the first thing he could feel was the coating of blood covering him and he immediately reeled. He was still angry, beyond livid. His blood continued to boil as images of his sisters body flashed through his memory. Gritting his teeth, Uriel violently shook his head, trying to clear it but it did no good.
With a strangled cry, the elf threw down his weapons, swords sticking up from where they pierced the ground. Clutching his head, fists balled tightly with locks of his paled blue hair, Uriel fell to his knees as he began sobbing uncontrollably. How many had he killed in the hours, the days, however long he had been in that state? How many families had he just destroyed without a second thought? How many lives?
This was the worst part about what he was. This monster that he harbored inside, that he tried so hard on a daily basis to reign in and control. It ate at his being until he snapped. Moving to lean against a nearby wall, he pulled his legs close to him to rest his head against his knees. Uriel remained like that until he heard steps approaching. Without looking up, Uriel lets out an animalistic growl as a warning to stay away.
Finally looking up after realizing the person wasn't leaving, he was met with the concerned face of Itillan which simply caused more tears to stream down the death knight's face as he tried to scramble away.
"No!" He yells harshly. "Stay away from me, Itillan. I dont.." he was cut off by a pitiful sob. "I don't want to hurt you too."