Basically, for the past few months my mom has been calling agencies to "help" me get out of the house more. Now, yes I have dropped out of school, but I DO GO OUT. Just not everyday, and when I do go out, I tend to make my outings last 1-2 hours. I don't really like going out to say the least. But because of that, my mom thinks I have mental issues because I dislike going out. Idfk why she thinks that, I guess she worried, idfk? Anyways, the agencies that come over to my house to talk to me, I usually say no to their help. I do listen to them, and I do consider what they have to say, but to be quite honest, my past with these types of people have been numerous. Let me tell you, I've been in counselling for the majority of my life time and it has done me no good. I've changed Councillors, I've gone to different places, everything, it has not helped me one bit. I've done mentor programs, hell I've even been in mental hospitals. I'm not saying the mental hospitals NEVER helped me, but what I'm trying to get at, is my vast history with those sort of things. They never quite worked for me, nor did I even like them to begin with, moreover, I was basically forced into these things. Anyways, today one of these agencies came over my house, and we had a talk, they talked to me about a mentor program which just sounded... Awful to say the least, lol. I politely declined their offer because honestly I wasn't even interested in what they had been offering me. My mom, on the other hand, didn't like the fact I said no, and then proceeded to threaten me by saying "I'll call the mental hospital on you."
Yes mother, go the fuck ahead and call them. Tell them the reason you're calling is because your "mental" child doesn't like to go outside everyday. Honestly, she has forced me into enough shit that hasn't worked for me already, and now I've decided to put my foot down. I'm done wasting my time. And unfortunately, my mother just has to get over that. I'm not someone she can call mental unstable, because I AM SOCIAL. I AM MENTALLY CAPABLE OF COMMUNICATING, I AM MENTALLY CAPABLE OF GOING OUT AND BEHAVING FINE AROUND OTHERS, IF ANYTHING, I MAY BE SOCIALLY AWKWARD.
Just, jfc. I'm so fed up with being forced into things I don't want to be in, in the first place. And no matter how much I tell her that, she doesn't listen, she doesn't care, and she doesn't leave me the fuck alone.
