#waybackjournal

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𝍨 hear birds singing, happy songs, singing together, pretty little bird in little cage can see from all sides, tweet tweet tweet what a pretty little bird I am.

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𝍧 Face in mirror not my own, everyone's gone, alone alone alone. Mom should be home soon, must be August now, so angry at mess, sorry mom I'm so sorry, so mean to Mike, be nicer now. Apologize to Warren. Go with Basil to commune, forget about Millie wrong to love. Forget everything, everything bad, don't make fuss. Faceless man in every corner, wears suit like dads, mask is only face, body foreign, forcing itself my mind, out out out get out

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𝍦 Door locked, me and Basil, no Millie gone gone gone taken away by faceless thing, body moves without thought not my own. Basil apologized not his fault means well.

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𝍥 upset Basil locked in room, can hear Millie seizing can't breath coughing, want out out out out out, screaming her name Millie Millie I'm sorry so sorry all my fault my fault brought you here brought you back, didn't know so selfish so selfish, no more pills. Basil comfort me, comfort comfort. So hard to think mind never empty, headache. thud must be Millie, she's alone with that thing.

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𝍤 River, Amethyst, lying on floor scarf wrapped around heads, no face no face no face. How does it see without eyes? When did we meet? Moved in year of Snake met Basil same year born year of Horse I born year of Rat Millie born same year met her year of Goat started job year of Sheep Warren born year of Rabbit Buttercup born year of dragon she met Cliff same year born under rooster, what year did Millie run away?

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𝍣 Basils found me unconscious what he does won't say, looks over me? Does Warren miss me? What's dad up to? Peter worried about brother, Cliff found note. How many miss us? Look in eyes could see it, contempt, dirty hippie dirty hippie, fag, leech, bum, parasite, sissy, pansy, freak. Rare I've been spoken to, gazed at, hit on, open my mouth ignored, just a pretty face, not pretty now, bags under eyes. Town must be happy us gone. Town must have forget Millie, they'll forget James too, missing kids become forgotten. They'd still know her face, the trouble she caused, such good people the Rosenbergs, could never hurt their kids. Such accusations are lies always lies don't go here making false accusations he's a good man attention attention all you want you've done nothing give nothing are nothing nothing nothing Hard to feel human. Losing face

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𝍢 Try sticking together, rooms changes but together not alone. Basil won't let me near Millie, everyone mad at her, her fault for infecting them, faceless thing has her. Heard River muttering, never heard River speak, startled by it, Amethyst silent. Spare gum forget hungry. Outside the windows people walk by call them calling them yelling shouting no one turns to look. Forgotten, think what River mumbles

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𝍡 Basil's gang making plans to leave, haven't seen River or Amethyst. Millie in same clothes, ones she stole, eyes vacant. Tried breaking doors, windows, walls no luck no luck. Each time try black out, mess house is mess what would mother think? Home soon, august. Is it August already? or still July? Mother I'm sorry for making you leave dad, didn't want you to, always hurt you but means well, so angry at him why? It was just a game. How long has that faceless thing followed me?

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