&&. continued from ask || @wcdidthis
Thomas heaved a sigh. “I know. I’m sorry,” he said, shooting her an apologetic look. “I guess I’m just tired of all this. I wanna be able to do it myself, y’know?”
He’d survived being crushed by the falling debris, which had been a miracle in and of itself, and the bruises, cuts, and concussion were all fading, for which he was more than thankful. But several of his ribs were still fractured or bruised, not to mention all the other fractured and bruised insides they suspected he had, and then there was his leg — bones crushed, broken, and splintered, likely to never heal completely. Just like Newt’s. All of it combined made doing anything, even just breathing, hurt like nothing else, and it also meant that it would be a while before he would stop needing help with seemingly simple tasks. The bitterness he felt about it all was almost physical sometimes, but there was nothing to be done for it, and he felt bad for taking it out on Teresa. He knew she was just trying to help.
“I just wish it would heal faster so you wouldn’t have to keep doing things for me. Sitting around all the time gets old really fast, let me tell you.”
Ever since Thomas saved her life and was crushed by the falling debris, Teresa made it her mission to make it up to him in anyway she could. She would forever feel guilty for letting him be crushed and not her. She knew that was on the mind of almost every glader, ‘why wasn’t she crushed? She deserved it far more then him.’ Teresa didn’t need to be a mind reader to know that was what everyone was thinking. And she herself knew she should have been the one under the debris.
But here they were, Thomas stretched out on the cot, Teresa trying to shed some light on the situation, while helping him change his shirt. “Don’t apologize Tom.” She replied simply, “you have nothing to apologize for, you saved my life, I owe you at least this much.” She tried to force a reassuring smile.
She knew this was mostly her fault, sure it wasn’t completely, if the Right Arm didn’t blow up WCKD, debris wouldn’t have fallen and crushed Thomas. But it was her fault in the sense of, it should have been her under the debris, not someone who everyone actually liked, not someone they actually could tolerate. Ever since the scorch trials, she had been throw daggers just by simple looks from the other gladers. Though she had tried to explain why she did what she did, it seemed like no one gave a care.
Teresa nodded, she could understand why laying around would drive someone crazy, not to mention not being able to do anything yourself. “You will heal soon, but for now, let me take care of you.” She smiled, it wasn’t forced this time, it was a real smile.