i’ve totally felt that. i’m feeling it now actually. currently unemployed so i feel like i have the weight of the world on my shoulders. which is silly because we are all just insignificant in the grand scheme of things. hang in there! you’re not alone and thank you for bringing this insignificant being right here a lot of joy with your writing. xx
i was there not that long ago, too!
ughhh, like, thinking about it sucks because it’s like oh shit i need money to live and survive but also, isn’t that concept fucking bullshit? like there are so much darker and heavier things going on in the world so i don’t wanna sound ungrateful either, but the game of comparison is difficult not to play when i see ppl living so luxuriously. i think more deserve that luxury. and even then, like you said, we simply exist!!! there’s planets and space and our lifetimes should be celebrating our existence and living freely because of the insignificance of it all in the wide view!!!
but you matter. i think you reminded me how fun it is to lose ourselves in art and what a beautiful human quality. thank you for the message and i hope your pillow is nice and cold and you always get the door held open for you.