#we're only human

[beadigitaldiary]

˜”°•.˜”°• WOMBS TO WOUNDS! •°”˜.•°”˜

⚠️ladies and everyone listen up!⚠️

we need to break the cycle, generational trauma plagues families so badly and its so common how many daughters and mothers have dysfunctional relationships & bad mental health issues.

-speaking solely from experience-

my mom wasnt really emotionally present growing up and said pretty harsh things to me (i was expected to get over) her and my grandma also had a pretty rocky relationship. since im so close to my grandma this has caused a bit of jealousy from her where she would occasionally accuse me of being enabled by my grandmother and im convinced there were some points where she has stopped me from seeing her (due to her own traumas)

I opened up to my older brother about it yesterday n towards the end he said I'm thinking too "deep" into it when IM N0T in response I told him that he always says that. im glad im a deep thinker, im glad i always think before i act, that way i wont make so many mistakes. but this is what i mean, i hide my feelings so that i dont hurt because im tired of being around those who arent emotionally available and make me seem like IM trippin (even had friends like that too) all i want is to feel HEARD & VALIDATED! THATS IT!

i am OFFCIALLY choosing peace from now on, idc how ppl feel about our relationship and us spending time together, this is MY grandma and im ALLOWED to have a close relationship w her and be there for her like shes always been there for me. everyone has that one family member that theyre the closest with or that one friend. my mom could easily spend time w me and if shes not into girly things like she says then she could at least see it as a learning experience like my therapist says.

again there may be days where ill be ok and other days not, because i cant predict my environment n im trying my best to control how i handle things..manifesting for easier days, more peace and freedom!~✊🏽✨🫧🎀

[faecaptainofdreams]

Y'all ever just have one of those days where something happens to make you realize you still got a lotta UGLY in your heart?

[mons-immortalium-if]

Hello! How are you?

Hey anon^^ I was actually doing pretty good. But then Youtube recommended me a song and I've been crying for an hour, then fell down a rabbit hole of other songs (as one does on YT...)

Was debating if I should share this, but I think he absolutely deserves it, so here, cry with me. But like also... click at your own risk? I must have listened to this a hundred times and it still makes me cry O_O Ren- Hi Ren

[queerprayers]

I grew up catholic and the church space we shared was also used by another denomination (it was on a military base) so there was a drum set in the church….that we didn’t use lol. But “let them clap along to one song,” reminded me that there was one hymn, a spring rendition of Hallelujah, where we would clap on beat and it was my favorite. I very much noticed when we stopped doing it after a few years 😭

Maybe we all need one song to clap along to every once in a while... Points were made, beloved.

<3 Johanna

[with-bells-upon]

humans are funny, evolutionary speaking. of two worlds. we remember being both pursuit predators, literally hunting by pursuing prey of much greater strength and size until it collapsed from exhaustion. we also remember, somewhere else in our ancestry, being prey animals. those creatures that spend their entire existence knowing full well that if they lose against a predator even once? there is no second chance. if you run, run with everything you have. if you fight, fight with everything you have. the most dangerous animals in this world? those creatures who would be seen as such a perfect food source for predators, except for the fact that they have zero chill.

huh. wonder what happens when you take a species with both these attributes, add an extremely social nature allowing them be stronger together than they could ever be alone, as well the capacity to both adapt itself to better suit it's surroundings, and also alter its surroundings to better serve itself? before finally throwing in a heavy 'sprinking' of being able to recognize and press an advantage to extreme?

...

yeah, humans are...

well. we're us, aren't we?

[euphorictruths]

[young-jae]

ps: feeling a little let down and having higher expectations that were not met does not mean we’re taking anything for granted, nor are we downplaying anything the boys do, because we know and appreciate how hard they work every single day for us. you don’t have to love everything they do with every single fibre of your being for you to still be able to love and appreciate them, and their hard work. ♡ 

[candycoatedemoboy]

I'm gonna be honest here, I have never heard something more healing than the song 'it's alright' by mother mother. I listen to it so often. Just...'You're not a monster, just a human and you made a few mistakes'??? 'You're not a demon, there's a reason you behaved in that way'??? I get shivers like, I never thought a song could settle me so easily amongst all my trauma!! how the hell does a song do that?? all these words strung along to the melody makes such a healing impact at the very heart of me, it's like it's a whole therapy session and all the feelings wash over me and want to cry, I just---