Iโm getting married in a few weeks. Donโt get me wrong, I am so freaking stoked to marry my person and be with them forever, but the actual wedding stuff is truly stressing me to death. I am broke, I have had panic attacks , I am to a breaking point. And I feel like Iโm supposed to act like everything is ok and Iโm the blushing bride blah blah blah, but I am most definitely not ok. I am drowning. I know most of this stress will be gone after the wedding, but I donโt know how to deal with it in a healthy way right now. I am extremely uncomfortable with being the center of attention, and let alone on the actual day, I have been the center of attention for the last year and it is exhausting. But Iโm supposed to be excited. Iโm supposed to be beautiful, graceful, be able to pay for stuff. I canโt do it. I have lost two pounds in the last week purely from stress, I am developing permanent wrinkles on my forehead from stress (Iโm only 23 for crying out loud!), I sleep like Iโm dead and then wake up and feel like I didnโt sleep all night. I havenโt painted in months (I usually paint almost every day). I feel so out of control and I feel like everyone hates me because I donโt have time. Iโm so tired.