aaand I’m feeling very sad. I was hoping coming back to school this time wouldn’t be as bad as after winter break, since spring break was only a week. and so far it isn’t as bad but it’s definitely not good and I’m not only very homesick as per usual but I miss being in arizona and how happy and pretty much stress free it was, and getting to spend so much time with my family. like one of the things that makes me happiest is watching movies/tv with my family when we are all there and focused on it. maybe it’s the connection that comes from us all experiencing the same thing at once, in pretty much the same way. I dunno. but I was just thinking about how that is like my favorite thing. and we did that a lot in arizona and last night when we caught up on supernatural and I miss it.
and I get in really weird moods when there is change happening so going from arizona to home to school in a matter of a couple days is just not working for me. and I have weird strong associations with things and since it’s becoming more and more springy in terms of whether I keep getting weird nostalgia but since it’s my first year of college I am experiencing the usual nostalgia in a different place in a different situation so I just end up feeling really weird and out of place. what is wrong with me aughhhh.
anyway, the moral of the story is I feel weird and sad.