#weekendramblings

[octoberkisses003]

Anywho. Following on from that last angsty trainwreck of a post... Practising mindfulness and gratitude so here are four things I'm thankful for: Having two good solid friends to have fun and good chats with. Good health for all my loved ones. Books! The fact that I'm alive, healthy and able to walk around and hear and see the world. no matter how crappy life sometimes feels, its good to be here. :)

[acreatureofhabits]

Will this work?

I've never been big on writing. It's probably because I feel like I never have anything important or significant to contribute to the blogosphere. It just goes to show how much of my life (regardless of the fact that I've only spent 2.5 decades on this Earth) was spent on thinking of what others thought. I am a people-pleaser, and therefore everything I say or write is for the purpose of making others feel good or feel satisfied. I worry about how others will perceive me if I truly write what I want to write. "Will they think I'm weird? Obnoxious? Or even worse... boring?"  That's not what writing should be about. Rather than a catharsis for myself, it becomes another weight on my shoulder. Another medium for me to try to be what I think I should be, than rather what I am.