2020 The year of the Awakening
This past year has truly been something that I must say. I did not think I would come to envisage in this life time let alone live through it. It would seem that, that which was foretold has come to pass. But just as any foretelling - changes occur for nothing is set in stone.
Such are the laws of free will both collectively and personally, on our journey here on earth. It is that free will that enables us as creators to re-create anything we so feel into existence. (Not to be mistaken for destiny. You see we all at points in our lives find ourselves in a place that seems to have aligned perfectly. This is Destiny, it is then in this time with this life changing event presented to us by some form of synchronistic events. (individual or collectively) that free will then plays her part. It is here in this time that you get to chose, do you repeat or do you go inward and create a new outcome. A new path and a new way forward.
This free will is extended to all and has no sell-by date. As human beings we too must extend this courtesy to all those around us for to do otherwise is to cheat both ourselves and that person of the space to choose. Thus changing the natural course of what is to be. It is one thing to open a door and quite another to push someone through it. We truly have no right to do this and if we do try to be meddlesome, them we must pay our dues for our meddlesome ways.
This year has taught me much in ways I did not anticipate or thought possible. And as ever I remain the pupil wide eyed and always curious and questioning all. For I will never presume to think I know – to me this is limiting my growth and my ability to learn ever more in my expansion as a being of unimaginable potential. I have observed many things this year both in myself and in those around me. Both close to home and afar,. In each observation, I am reminded that my observations are In some part also a reflection of me. In as much as I feel within me that I have worked to accomplish much self-reflection and healing in my life. I do know that this self-reflective work in my journey back to me (source, God, Home, The Light) has much work still to complete. If I were to let my self-delusion and ego have say, I am sure the message would be that of completed work. I used to hear myself say (I am too old for this – I have worked too hard to have to put up with this – I am beyond this now) And now I giggle to myself because it is me who presented such lessons or reflections to me once more. Because I had not yet learned or transmuted what was needed that I may end this repetition. It truly is not until faced with a reflection where one can look at it with peace and balance in our heart and being that we move it out of our reflective mirror. If it no longer causes a reaction in you – then you have transcended the lesson. There is great power in this and great humility as you become closer to your inner self.
True self reflection I have come to witness is not for the faint hearted and is in itself an immensely powerful and humbling journey. I see many proclaim to have done this – and yet when triggered the self-reflective work is no where to be seen. It is easy to preach about self-reflection when we are looking into the eyes of those who merely project, as a defence mechanism in order that they do not have to face the deep-set unconscious pain buried beneath layers of self-made fabrications and gremlins. In order to cope with the onslaught of an initial trauma or pain at the instant that it was created. This pain than left to breed like an illness, an infestation within the subconscious and unconscious energetic threads of the emotional realm within the person. No different to a parasite it will breed within you and when faced with the threat of being eliminated it will fight against you to survive. So now you are not only having to re visit a pain within you, you are also having to fight the gremlin you created and fed for all these years, or even life times. Talk about hard work.
But unless we do, we will inevitably repeat the same patterns and then ask ourselves why we keep having to put up with the same old story.