Episode 10: “Stress Levels are over 9,000″ -Ashley
Well slap my ass and call me sally
Ugg, i hate Survivor auctions. Last time i didnt get shit and i'll be mad if i dont get anything this time again. Like bitch fuck this auction, im gonna grab those 500$ and go to the fucking mall. Watch me get some chanel and gucci shit while u enjoy ur shrek 2 dvd binch
I. JUST. FOUND. THE. FUCKING. ZINGARO. IDOL OMGGG. I literally was going to sleep like 10 minutes ago, but i was looking with the names from each season, and i was at caramoan and i was like, c'mon, let's not leave this jsu half way, so i go with fuckign eddie fox (that i was like this one is easy ill just do it by mnd, and thanks god i didnt do it bc i would have fucked up) and IT WAS THERE. So like, Adrian already showed me how it looked with the deprana idol when it was already found (also, 10/10 for that picture use lol) so like, i know it hasnt been founded. I just hope i really did get it because im so excited, im like shaking rn. This is a miracle, a dream come true tbh. After a season with like 10 fucking idols, i finally have one in my hands and im fucking ecstatic im gonna die. Also the auction was today, and this time i did get stuff, so yayayay. I got an amazing letter with the most iconic speech ever and i got an extra vote so woo. Also i know what miss adrian has and i talked to him about some other stuff about the game. I'll make a video confessional explaining everything because rn im like shaking BECAUSE I HAVE A MOTHER FUCKING IDOL (and also it's 3:30am and one can only say many logic and smart stuff before passing out)
Hey it's me! The one that is always certain that his brown ass is gonna get fucked over by all these whiteys!
Okay so I didn't leave and my name wasn't brought up at all so I feel good about that, I hope I can still fly under the radar in terms of voting out, like that would be my best bet. Looking at the tribal I'm pretty happy with how it went. I didn't trust Jared so i'm glad he's gone and then he leaked a F2 that I had with Steven which is hilarious omfg
Like first of all I'm not getting anywhere near the F2 and even though Steven is my #1 idk if it would be a good idea to have him sit next to me tbh
moving on, Bailey was pissed that he didn't know about the plan and I told him my side of the story which was completely true, I didn't know that he wasnt informed of the plan! I voted last minute...I was bust with a film assessment !
so i feel like I have calmed that situation down but i feel like he is still majorly pissed at Ric...meh it aint me!
The reward was glam, I got an extra immunity necklace that I will probably use at this upcoming tribal and I got a thing that can remove someone from the jury
I also stumbled across what looks to be the Zingaro Idol, so if I do get that I have it and if I don't that means Ricardo has it and he didn't tell me he found the page... but if i do get that I would have the Zingaro idol and a extra immunity? glam af
like I know that the Drepana idol is out there, hiding under Jerri Manthey is a good idea! She is a queen!
I realized I haven't said anything about Justin being voted off...at least I don't think I have. I honestly miss Justin. </3 He was such a great person and ally. We clicked right away on the first night of the game. I like Elise a lot, but as I was reading the votes from the last tribal before merge, I wanted him to make it. Ashley is my number one ally in this game, but so was Justin. :/ I trusted him a lot in this game, but at the end of the day him and Connor had to be split up. At least that's what The Idols (Jacob/Ash/Ken/Myself) wanted and thought what was best. I have to say Connor is one lucky person in this game, considering he was supposed to leave 100 years ago lol.
I love dreprana roots (Myself/Ash/Ken/Jacob/Connor/Elise), but I would also love to flip the script. Even though I know it might be a little too soon for that *sigh*. But you know what they say, keep your friends close and your enemies closer. Seriously how amazing would it be to flip the script, vote out someone from drepana roots and align myself with the internationals? Or maybe that's just wishful thinking. I'm gonna slow my roll, and not get ahead of myself. At least for right now *insert emoji upside down smile*
[12:52:41 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: BTW don't be mad at me when you see my list
this challenge is literally designed to show people's cards and I don't want them to know I'm trying to work with you until we can flip the tribe
[12:53:21 PM] ricardo: Yeah, I think it can end up having something behind it, but who knows
[12:53:36 PM] ricardo: Haha it's fine dw
[12:53:43 PM] ricardo: Even tho I think we might be able to do so
[12:54:26 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: I think so too depending on whats happening
[12:54:47 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: the only issue I'm seeing is no matter what another one of zingaro is probably in danger next
[12:55:21 PM] ricardo: I mean, elise is not here for this tribal, os there's only 9, if us 4 returnees get a way of having an extra vote, we are golden
[12:55:32 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: but that's the issue lmao
[12:55:58 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: I tried to use that to convince someone to flip and they said they didn't want to flip in case there's a returnee alliance
[12:56:33 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: so I think Adrian might have to go next in order to lock a solid alliance vs us having to use idols and auction stuff to get majority for one round
[12:57:01 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: but after that its got to be actual swings at people in power
[12:57:14 PM] ricardo: Here's the thing, there's also Bailey and hes from the minority of Pizarro, if hes given an opportunity to be back on top he would do so
[12:57:43 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: but bailey is with elise from what ive been told
[12:57:50 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: which is why he voted jared out
[12:58:14 PM] ricardo: Or maybe he didn't actually do so
[12:58:54 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: ideally I think you/me/steven/bailey/two others from drepana could stick together
[12:59:21 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: and that way at final 6 its fair game
[12:59:51 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: but the only way I could possibly flip people by the sound of things is to convince them that Adrian would get votes from yall
[1:00:16 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: because he's a vet
he's close with people who have a lot of connections
[1:01:01 PM] ricardo: Yeah, however hes still one of our votes. Yeah voting him would dismantle the opportunity to us having an alliance, but would also put us in the minority
[1:01:25 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: not if the 6 of us voted together
[1:02:26 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: I asked to see if anyone wanted to take a shot at someone on our old tribe but everyone said they didn't want to stick their neck out unless they knew they were protected
[1:03:20 PM] ricardo: The problem is that we don't even have 6 votes garantized, while with him going for a deprana, we already have 4 with all the returnees, and 5 if we add Bailey
[1:03:51 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: ok but what happens when elise comes back and pulls bailey back over
[1:04:00 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: its 5-4 with all the returnees in minority
[1:04:32 PM] ricardo: Yeah but youre willing to do so, and there's already an entire tribe willing to vote for them, and with u is complete
[1:04:53 PM] ricardo: Well, if we vote Adrian then its a minority of 6-3
[1:05:04 PM | Edited 1:05:45 PM] ricardo: And it's not exactly us at the top
[1:05:06 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: yes with us in the 6
[1:05:48 PM] ricardo: We would be doing others people's dirty works
[1:05:53 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: and in that 6 it would be you/me/steven which is already half the vote
[1:06:14 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: well they have to go either way
[1:07:00 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: if bailey really is swayed by numbers he'll be much more willing to work in the 6 than in a 5
[1:07:10 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: cause if he's the swing he's just gonna go to his friend's side
[1:07:22 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: if he knows his vote wont change he'll vote with majority
[1:07:32 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: like we've seen
[1:07:39 PM] ricardo: Okay but what happens if elise and Bailey are together and decide they want to go the others
[1:08:04 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: then it would still be 5-4 without bailey
[1:08:21 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: only difference is now within the 5 you/me/steven would control the votes when everyone outside the group left
[1:08:34 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: vs in a 6 where it could potentially tie
[1:09:04 PM] ricardo: The problem with this plans, is that there's too many "if's" and stuff that could change really fast, there's idols, there vote negators and God knows what else there is in the game
[1:09:20 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: but that can be said for any plan lol
[1:09:58 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: from the looks of it mine has a lot more thought put into it though
which makes me feel secure in it
[1:10:18 PM] ricardo: Yeah, ht even if there was none of them there's still a lot of those, we are pretty much playing eith fire rn, and we either get burned or make a campfire, because with that plan, we might not end with no numbers because we aren't 100% the others would do that stuff
[1:11:01 PM] ricardo: Yeah but also when you over think stuff they end up reaching, and idk I just don't feel safe voting for one of.our vote and hope and pray we also have other 3 more
[1:11:08 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: if you make it a game based on tribal lines then you automatically lose though
[1:11:34 PM] ricardo: It's not about tribal lines, is about numbers
[1:12:11 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: shaky numbers
shakier than the ones I think I have
[1:13:45 PM] ricardo: I don't think so tho, I said names and I'm 100% they are secured, you gave me 3 names, 2 of them being us, and the other 3 are just anyone else that might wnat to jump in
[1:14:23 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: well Ive pretty much locked mine in
[1:14:31 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: I just haven't been like "ok ricardo/steven/bailey are in"
[1:14:58 PM] Kenneth 🐸☕️: but i don't want to put their games out there unless i know there's something happening
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n1Y2FTnG9Mw&feature=youtu.be
Can I just say exile is AWFUL, and that reward challenge was AWFUL! The worst people got the better stuff, my dumbass bid scarcely and awkwardly, this was an all around mess. It was funny seeing Jared get blindsided and expose what he supposedly knew. It's just weird seeing how everyone basically retracted into their original tribes after merge. Battle of the Tribes?? Seems like it.
So Kenneth wants to get rid of me, Kenneth wants to get rid. of. me. okay okay okay cute mate don't try and target me! The americans are all so fucking dumb, if you are on the bottom you need to flip! If you want to flip then fucking flip, don't give fucking give caveats! you shit monkey god i hate americans
The Idols (Me/Ash/Jacob/Ken), The Fatal 2 (Me/Ash); I still need to bring the name up to her lol, The Noob Squad (Me/Ash/Connor/Elise/ex-member Justin :/), Drepana Roots (Me/Ash/Ken/Jacob/Elise/Connor), and now Me/Ash/Adrian/Steve..... OKAY I think I'm good on alliances. I should feel comfortable with all of this, but the second you feel comfortable in this game is the second you're voted out. And I never feel comfortable. I should get confused with the alliances I'm in, but thankfully I know how to keep things straight and so does Ash. I love her so much. This is exciting.
https://youtu.be/rwV5zuhDNYA
No offense, but I hate that Ash pulled me into an alliance with Adrian and Steve. I already want out and it hasn't even been a whole 24 hours. U G H.
Not feeling comfortable going into this tribal at all. All my allies possess some sort of power. Bailey has a negator, Adrian has immunity and frankly I think Ricardo has an idol because both tribal idols are gone. I just feel like my time is up because I'm the easiest target, like Jared was. So many different alliance ideas are occurring and I feel like I'm getting second hand smoke with each piece of info I receive. I'm the after thought outside a bigger thing. Maybe I'm just going insane for no reason. I really want to make it past my 10th place in Easter Island but my gut tells me I'm gonna go and there isn't anything I can really do about it.
Ken to my knowledge wants to attempt to blindside Adrian but include Ricardo and myself in the plan. This is a huge red flag to me because if Adrian is immune, you might as well take out his supposed F2 right? That's why I'm pissed off with that luck based immunity. There was no way an original Zingaro would win that purely based off numbers even if people were going to strategically place people to hide alliances or some shit. Nobody is taking the time to speak with me privately, big red flag huh?
On the other hand Adrian has been talking closely with Ashley and now there is a formed "alliance" of Adrian, Ashley, Christian and myself. There is a chance for us to take control of the game but I don't entirely trust them despite being on good terms with both of them. We don't know who exactly who is at the bottom and telling them Kenneth could just be like feeding info into the palm of his hand. Adrian is playing the immunity necklace. It's like, idk. I feel like I'm gonna get scalded by whichever pot I stick my hand in.
Bailey is *supposedly* vote blocking Ken & Christian and voting Ken which would mean the Zingaro 4 would have a majority for the vote unless of course Bailey is pissed off with us for not telling him about the vote.
I feel like a piece of shit lying straight to Ken's face who is telling me that he'd do all these things to keep me in the game and telling me that I'm probably in the most favourable position with all the Americans, ie, the goat. I mean fuck it I've been the goat and got votes to win. I just feel like there is a *little* emotional manipulation because I would literally feel like a shit fuck if someone tells the truth. I hate having to play the rat. But I need that cheese. I wanna survive so bad. He wants to vote Ric because Ric shut him down so I said I'm down and gave my word but fuck I feel like shit. Ric i irrational so I'm saying nothing. Ken should be going tonight if everyone is telling the truth. I don't know what to expect. My gut still tells me I'm somehow gonna get fucked and go home with 2 votes but who knows. I have no power and all I can do is touch wood and cross my fingers. Still think that these games are driving me batshit crazy.
Stress. Stress levels are over 9,000. I came so close to playing my idol tonight... But I guess that was me being paranoid??????? Idk. This tribal is gunna have me shook though. I hope my alliances have pulled it together right.... Also I'm starting to have some doubts about my alliance with Christian, we just don't talk other than tribal times. Its different with Adrian, but I still have no idea whether I can trust him.
SO THIS ISN'T A CONFESSIONAL BUT I'LL BE POSTING TOMORROW FOR SURE. I'VE BEEN SICK FOR THE PAST 3 DAYS AND HAVE LEGIT NO VOICE RN AND I REALLY WANNA VLOG.
I'll still post something even if I end up going. Stay tuned!!!