That moment...that single moment when just for a minute or two the pain wins...you realize you aren't the same person you were before it hit...you realize the smile that you show almost daily is a mask and is just hiding the panic attack because the pain is so completely unbearable...its 6am and while I lay here trying to go to sleep for the last 5 hours and unable to even get comfortable enough to take a deep breath much less, sleep, I am holding back tears and trying so hard to keep it in so I dont wake my husband up for the 300th plus day in a row with pain, pain, and more pain, I realize 1 thing...I miss smiling. I mean truly smiling...smiling because I'm unbelievably happy...I hate the fake smile that has become the norm across my face...this is what #chronicpain looks like...this is what it's taken from me...#weneedacure #thepaintookmysmile #backpain #chronicbackpain #accident #wehavetriedeverything #nosleep #teamnosleep #holdingbackthetears #sleepy #ZTribetakesBelmont #ztribe