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welsh today is SO hard because we're doing opinions but it's all "what do you think of [celebrity I've never heard of] [sportsperson I've never heard of] [random man I've never seen before in my life]"

i simply do not have opinions about these people. for the most part i don't even know enough to guess what might be an appropriate adjective someone else might use to an express an opinion about them

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not only did i not do my welsh homework over the christmas holidays (i never do my welsh homework) but i also just like. didn't look at any of my welsh. and i have class tomorrow because somehow it's already term time?? and i don't think i know any welsh anymore. and also the speaking exam is at the end of this month. oh dear.

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welp i did it, i emailed to ask if there's any scope to move to the Intensive Welsh For Masochists course

there's a strong chance the answer will be no. if it's yes, there's a strong chance i will end up regretting this profoundly. but hey!

#welsh woes #that's its official name by the way. Intensive Welsh For Masochists.

i forgot to tell you that i passed my welsh exam (yay!) BUT i got a lower mark than the other person in my class who did the sylfaen exam and i've been too embarrassed to ask anyone from other classes about their marks to know how mine compares generally so i'm finding it really hard not to let my competitive brain ruin this for me. it didn't help that the others shared their grades in the group chat straight away before i had time to process mine mentally :')

but like, the other sylfaen person in my class is unemployed and a super grammar enthusiast who loves memorising grammar rules and whatever and considers learning languages a major hobby of theirs, whereas i have two jobs and several chronic illnesses and have never memorised a rule in my life. AND the exam paper itself was unexpectedly inaccessible to me for format reasons that i hadn't known to request accommodations for so i was struggling on the day more than expected. so like. i was never going to do as well as they did. but my competitive brain really wanted to. and isn't satisfied by the fact that even though they got the set of speaking topics i wanted and i got the ones i was dreading, i was only a few marks lower on speaking, which is the most important unit, it's just the reading where i dropped more marks than anticipated, in part because i Could Not Read The Paper Properly Due To My Visual Disability

anyway how do i teach my brain that it's not a competition and also that even if it was, it's stupid to pick as your class rival somebody you could never actually match up to because they're the sort of person who gets 100% in language exams and you're the person who re-took AS level french and also parts of the GCSE. i need more people in my actual class to be my rivals if I want to have friendly competition that pushes me to work harder without making me just feel bad and discouraged. or i need to be less embarrassed to talk about it with people not in my class if I'm going to secretly compete with them. can't secretly compete with them if you don't know their marks!!

and ultimately at the end of the day the important thing is that i went to wales to take my exam and had a conversation at a bus stop in welsh and isn't that the whole fucking point and not whether i managed to "beat" my classmate's marks

BUT.

#the other two people in our class took Mynediad and obviously did well bc they'd done most of Sylfaen first #so overall my mark was the lowest of the four of us but like. it was for Sylfaen not Mynediad #does my brain accept that a lower mark for Sylfaen is more Welsh than a higher one for Mynediad? no.#also the language hobby classmate doesn't talk to people in Welsh outside of class #whereas my actual goal was to be able to. you know. talk to people on Welsh #which I do when I can. though I live much further from Wales than they do #fucking competitive brain argh #this is why my mum would never let us open our school reports until we were at home #she didn't ever want us to compare marks or grades #(and that was pre WhatsApp etc so if you didn't open it at school it didn't get compared)#welsh woes

the good news: new welsh class is better

the bad news: I'm tired and we're only two hours in. there's two hours to go. because new welsh class lasts for FOUR. HOURS.

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girding my loins ahead of my welsh class (eating a very large bowl of soup to make sure i'm not hangry as well as evil)

save me butternut squash parsnip and sweet potato soup. you're my only hope

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there are already. slower classes. that are designed. to be slower. please fucking switch to them so that the rest of us in this class aren't suffering because of your stubbornness.

#Welsh woes #god I really hope they let me switch #to another class at this level if not to the intensive class #it's very much an 'either they go or I do' situation at this point. this class ain't big enough for the both of us