"Before Jeffrey Dahmer committed his first crime, he had been attacked himself; he was the victim, in his own words, for no reason. "I was visiting a friend, and walking home that night, I saw three high school seniors approaching. I had a feeling something was going to happen, and,sure enough, one of them pulled out a baton and hit me in the back of the head. For no reason. He didn't say anything, he just hit someone. And I ran away."On his sexuality: "In the township where I lived, homosexuality was the absolute taboo. It was never talked about, ever. I had desires to be with someone, but I never knew anyone gay, that I knew of; so that was sexually frustrating."Jeff claimed that his fantasies of meeting a hitchhiker came from within himself and not from a movie or a book. Jeff admitted that he felt very scared after killing Hicks and that he "paced around the house for a while.""Were you nervous when [the police] stopped you? [He had the bags in the back of his car] - "That's an understatement."Jeff stated that he never intended to hurt anyone. He used sleeping pills to render his victims unconscious and thus sleeping pills to render his victims unconscious and thus have total control over them without harming them. At first, he didn't even think about taking anyone home. "That's why I started using the mannequin. [...] I wanted to find a way to satisfy myself without hurting anyone."For about two years, Jeff managed to suppress his dark feelings and fantasies: "Around 1983, I started going to church with my grandmother. I wanted to straighten out my life. I went to church, read the Bible, tried to push away any sexual thoughts, and it went pretty well for about two years."After receiving that note at the library, Jeff's fantasies resurfaced, and he started drinking again. "So I joined the bathhouse club, went to gay bars, and tried to satisfy myself with the mannequin." But the mannequin didn't work, so Jeff once went to a funeral home after reading about the death of an 18-year-old. He saw the body and found it so attractive that he slipped away to the funeral home bathroom to masturbate. That night he went to the cemetery and wanted to dig up the young man's body to take it home, but it didn't work because the ground was frozen. [*and he heard an owl hooting and a dog barking, which frightened him" 📌
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