going to post a bunch of modeling (mermaid & otherwise) work over here i think. I usually do more of that on my dedicated instagram/fb side accounts for it, but i'm just sick of those platforms. but essentially, my photographer friend I work with a ton is going to be entering end-of-life hospice probably in the next month, and I hate how little of our work together I actually have posted/shared online at all considering we have SO MUCH of it. and i think if i wait too long to share it it'll just make me even more sad.
i think part of how emotionally i'm taking this is that during our last big photoshoot weekend a couple years ago he first got diagnosed with cancer. He went off to have a "routine" doctor's appointment while I did makeup for a photoshoot, ended up coming back an hour later than expected with an emergency melanoma removal, and we had to redo our underwater shoot plans around it since he couldn't submerge the wound in water for a week. that didn't end up being the exact aggressive cancer he's been fighting over the past year, but it was the first step/harbinger, though at the time i think all of us assumed it was a "close call" scenario and would be over/dealt with in a few months. and not that it'd be our last big adventure photos--we would hike, technical climb, scramble up shady cliff edges, mountain bike a couple miles into the backcountry, and more to get to some locations for our shots--i was excited to have a photographer willing to go to remote areas, he was happy to have a model willing to stand at cliff edges and bike 3 miles in full face makeup to get the shots he had in mind. i'm going to miss him a lot.
