I had a blast tonight!!! There was no anxiety!!! A big part of this is starting to wear makeup at least once a week. The other part is more complicated. For about 20 years I’ve had seasons where I dealt with same sex attraction and I’ve always let it pass and repressed it. It started happening more after I turned thirty and really came to a head when I developed my first crush in a while and it ended up being a woman. So I did some some reflection and realized I still am attracted to men, but am also capable of being attracted to women. I am bisexual, and I’ve never felt more free since I’ve admitted that to myself. I’m nowhere near the end of my journey, I’ve only reached the tip of the iceberg. I have a strong faith in God. In fact in the beginning, I kept asking God to either make me 100% straight so I could be normal or 100% gay so I could be a celibate monk for the rest of my life. That’s not the way God made me, I felt cursed because I thought everything was in black and white and here I am, a literal waking gray area. I can’t walk away from my faith, so I ordered at least one college class worth of books on this schedule with topics ranging from first person accounts of being LGBT+ Christian to how to love and include LGBT+ Christians and how to love LGBT+ people in general. I also want to be a part of the LGBT+ community and especially help bisexual visibility, especially for bisexual women who are the most targeted group of women for sexual assault, stalking, etc. I have a long journey ahead of me. A lot of people close to me know including my mom. So far I’ve been met with support and acceptance. I’m keeping this off Facebook because there are still some in person conversations that need to happen, but those people aren’t on Instagram as well as coworkers who I don’t feel like they need to know this yet. #bisexual💜💙💖 #comingoutbisexual #comingout🌈 #whatbilookslike #feelingfree #feelingfreeandhappy (at Madison, Wisconsin) https://www.instagram.com/p/B8QbVCZnKik/?igshid=r6dgci5jpdct
