#whatever fucking

[undercoverbrellla]

'kyle did you do nothing to for all of history again you're gonna start failing aren't you the straight A's guy 🙄' urghhhhhhhhhhh head in hands

[blualt]

the inner machinations of my mind are an enigma

*knocks over a carton of milk* T^T

[gaycannoliboy]

personal stuff tbh so read if u want idc

honestly i don't know why i'm so fucking bad at going to school? why does it give me so much fucking anxiety i barely do anything. i have a lot of friends there and usually they're pretty happy to see me, and yet so many things make me physically ill to think about and here i am in the middle of the night, already knowing im not going to be up to going this morning. i only have 4 more months left for christ's sake, then im done. it's not that hard to get through and yet i can't seem to motivate myself at all. plus today at school there's going to be a god damn assembly for the whole school to "raise awareness" about eating disorders and i cannot deal with that right now im so close to relapsing and i already sort of have. im doing what i did two years ago and only eating one thing from lunch for the whole day, like a slice of pizza, and then not eating anything else. im so down on how I look right now because of testosterone making me gain some weight and i want it all gone right fucking now i cant stand it. plus yesterday in my teacher assistant hour at the end of the day the kids were learning the neuter declensions in latin, and they were making jokes about how you "can't just switch genders" and were referencing "transvestites" and shit like that and i was so so uncomfortable it made me so fucking upset. whatever im trash anyway doesn't matter !!!