#whatitslike

[computer-prion]

This came across my Youtube feed, and it's criminally underrated. It scratches the part of my brain Ena does, so if you love Ena you'd def love this too.

[isotextures]

Trifecta

Everything right now feels like an exhale into a deep sob. One of those sobs that leaves you doubled over, holding yourself, gripping your ribs through your back, letting tension run through and out of you. 

It’s something like releasing pain, but not quite. Something in the soft, touchy spot between grief, anguish and relief. Grief for all of the people and things that have been taken, destroyed, upended and left behind in the monstrous chaos of the last three years. Anguish for the knowledge that it could all be different, that there are real people with the power to make decisions on that scale, and did not. Anguish also for the fact that despite all of those people with all of that power, there is still a gray space between what could have happened, what did, and what was always going to –– the bare truth that we, perhaps, were always on this trajectory, as a country. 

And lastly, relief. Relieving yourself of holding any of it, allowing yourself to slip below the lukewarm, muddled waters of the present. To look up at the rippling surface of all of the things that you can and cannot change and notice that when you let go, you begin to float. You hold your breath, catch a ray of sunlight. It warms your cheeks. Relief for the reminder of warmth, for the reminder to come up for air, for feeling breath in your lungs and current at your limbs. Letting yourself drift and taking in the surroundings, letting the shore come to you. 

I regret sometimes that I can only reflect in my senses. My politics, my education, my bank account tell me that there is more to be angry about. But it feels like this is what really brings me back, all that really matters. 

[poemswritten-inbed]

[sjoberg31]

What it’s like - Everlast https://open.spotify.com/track/7pMVB2oz4Q4SlfTvvevNro?si=Ml34P-04S6a-xxtXZlk6dQ #music #whatItsLike #everlast https://www.instagram.com/p/B0IqZcJCn4s/?igshid=ofq28msphzz9

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[fugandhi]

“What It’s Like” by FUGANDHI

This is our second music video and single from the upcoming album, “MASS HYSTERIA!”

I’d like to take a moment to recognize KiM! for all of her TOTALLY AWESOME Camera work (as well as a variety of other contributions and overall unparalleled talent in general) to help make this video (we both shot all of the footage ourselves)! 

The song is one of 17 songs from our upcoming debut album. I created & recorded “What It’s Like” in October of 2018 and then I had to go back and re-record it earlier this year. I’m totally pleased with how it all came out after all is said and done. It’s essentially a snapshot of KiM! & I and our life together (the last like 5 years). There’s a lot of important experiences we’ve had (both good and bad) that will never be seen, so thankfully I can at least share some snippets of where we’ve been together.

While on the subject - I am still working on the album (with as much given time as possible while maintaining a work-life balance with working and whatnot). 

I was 19 when I started this journey to get my music off the ground and start a legitimate career as a touring musician. I’m now 34. I’ve had to earn everything I have (literally would not be able to share my music with you if KiM! & I had not been striving for 11 years together on our own). All of the gear, equipment, instruments - Everything. It was all earned by us and we have no intentions of stopping our momentum.

To say I (as well as KiM!) have been patiently working year after year (after year) would be an extreme understatement. This has been something I’ve been wanting to do my whole life (having started playing music since I was 11). This album has pretty much been a lifetime in the making for me (having dreams when I was a child to perform music for the rest of my life) - so - I’m gonna make it count. Despite the obstacles through the years (and even opposition from a certain unfriendly few) - This album will be made and it will be released this year and then after that  - it - IS - ON! OH, and if you haven’t already done so - Feel Free to SUBSCRIBE to our Youtube Channel for any more upcoming videos and updates! 

Soon I will be making an important announcement about the future of FUGANDHI & Cheap Fix Records!

For now - ENJOY our new video and our new song!

Lyrics:

“We sang those songs late at night. You said they were your favorite band. It changed my world. I had to write, and now I think I understand.

I didn’t say how much it hurt - I only wanna see you smile (to disinfect the wound my love will heal), if even only for a while…

Do you know what it’s like to walk a mile in my shoes? ‘Cause I don’t know what it’s like, not until I’ve been you.

Do you know where I’ve been and the places that I’m going to? ‘Cause I don’t know where you’ve been, not until I have been there, too.

In our lives, we give our time: We don’t ask for much in return. Just a good ol’ life - What’s Right is Right. You can’t remove what I have earned.

How many years went by? We gave a try, and now we start to realize that there’s still more time to make things right. And now, I gotta live my life.

Do you know what it’s like to walk a mile in my shoes? ‘Cause I don’t know what it’s like, not until I’ve been you.

Do you know where I’ve been and the places that I’m going to? ‘Cause I don’t know where you’ve been, not until I have been there, too.”

STAY AWESOME.

-ATOMIK 1

[mralpete]

🙏🏿🙏🏿 #Repost @wjctjax with @get_repost ・・・ Behind the scenes of our new podcast, #WhatItsLike, intern @mralpete is composing some original music for an emotional moment. We can’t wait to share the finished product with you THIS THURSDAY, Jan. 31!! Find out more at WJCT.org/podcasts. #insidewjct #podcastlife #podcast #ilovewjct #podcasting #ilovejax (at WJCT) https://www.instagram.com/p/BtPC_oWFAYg/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1gso0lav0pviq

[betterinme-blog1]

The hard times in Motherhood

18.1.2019 friday

Today I am very tired,

The last post I said I was going to get out of the house with my kids, I did that and one of them Still had me up at quarter to 3 this morning and didn't even go bed early, a lot of 2 year olds probably going to bed at 7 or 8 or maybe earlier but not mine they either go sleep at 8 and wake up at 2 or they go sleep at 11 and still wake up at a ridiculous time. I'm a stay at home and it is hard, people might think 'oh its okay you've got it easy and it doesn't matter what time ur kids go sleep cos your home all day you can sleep with them' that's not the case and it does matter what time they go to bed and it does matter if I have broken sleep and up all night with them because that means I'm in bed all day and I'm just wasting my life being stuck in all the time. Not seeing the beauty of this world. And that's why I've started to just get out even if I'm tired and not had much sleep like yesterday and started a new hobby... Photography. I've created a new Instagram page @j.e.gphotography and in the middle of building a website. Yesterday after I went out something changed about me.. I was positive, I was happy and I haven't felt like that in a very long time! It was great. But today came around and I'm just exhausted. I was going to go out today with my kids again but its a rainy day and that's a problem, I'm not well enough to go out in the rain, and by not well enough I mean I've literally got like a chest infection or something because i can't stop coughing and my voice is raspy, it's like a smokers cough but i don't smoke and last time I went in the rain I got mastitis because I breastfeed my youngest and I was not well then I was on my way to the doctors. I'd rather not have that again. I feel like crap today and to top it off I've got a load of housework to do and kids moaning at me everytime I leave the room! I just want to curl up in a blanket on the sofa and listen to silence! Honestly that would be perfect! And I'm not saying I don't want my kids or being ungrateful. I'm sure every mum gets this way where they just want abit of peace and quiet not have to run around after little ones and clean constantly and put toys away every 10 minutes because they get everything out! Not listening to constant moaning and crying because they can't get their own way. This morning my daughter was crying because the door was open and not shut! I mean what kid cries because of a door being open? I don't get it. I suppose this post is more of a rant about motherhood. Being a mother, what it's like. I don't have any mum friends to rant to so this is a perfect way of getting it all out.