I think it's hard for me to find someone special because I'm so different from everyone else I tend to see. I find that all the girls hat like me and that I like tend to have the same thought processes as a rock, or have no life skills whatsoever, or any sort of hobbies or passions. It's difficult to find in them something more than just a great place for my penis if thats all they attempt to be. Or it goes down like "Oh I like you, but only enough to let you think we're going to be a thing and then I'll disappear completely or jump to some other guy." Which really isn't cool, not because the friend zone, like, I get that. But because I'm taking valuable time to spend time with you and make a life long bond that will flourish even under our darkest times so instead of leading me on and wasting my time which I could've spent bettering myself intellectually or physically, just don't. And there's so few of those girls I actually do find interesting, because I want more than sex and babies. I want more than a failed wedding. I want the relationship to work as flawlessly as possible, not because it's perfect, but we understand eachother and see where we must compromise. And i definitely do NOT want a dictator for a significant other. I do NOT want a 'good' wife that would have been ideal in the 50s, I want a GREAT wife that compliments not only my passions but that challenges me to be better than I was the day before, every day. I don't know man. That's just so hard to find here when I'm an alien in my own home town.
