Ok I’ve never posted before but I’ve decided this is now a goddam shitpost account for when I’m fed up with people and society and my body turning against itself. If you know me, no you don’t keep scrolling.
Also you may or may not get context. Depends on my mood through this typing rant.
Why am I not even 17 yet and the nurses are making jokes I’m a FUCKING GERIATRIC PATENT!?? Like excuse me why am I a goddam 16 year old that has to go to a urologist and get MRI scans and x rays all the time, I’m not some 70 year old I’m SIXTEEN and I’ve been fucked up by a BUG when I was THREE. Lyme disease, bartonella, and some other third thing that’s hiding them IM MY ORGANS. I’m so stressed out from this IM GETTING IBS. SIXTEEN. IBS. How fucking ridiculous is that? And you know what brought this rant on. I’m walking up stairs like a normal goddam person and say “oh dam my back hurts, and my knees, wait I was supposed to take the recycling out this morning wasn’t I?” I have a HERNIATED DISK. SIXTEEN. HERNIATED DISK. Fuck this I can’t sit slouching like I used to because my back will hurt really bad and I start bitching like an old man. I’m pissing my pants at random and praying to whatever sick twisted thing that decided to do this to me that it isn’t going to be at school cuz ya, I still have to deal with that shit still. I can’t use the stairs in my TWO FLOOR SCHOOL and each of my classes are on a different floor. So I have to stand on this elevator looking completely normal on the outside until my chronic illness finally kicks me in the everything and I’m physically and mentally incapacitated because guess what? ITS A BRAIN INFECTION TOO. Fuck this I’m too smart for a therapist they keep saying I don’t need therapy but I need people to just rant about so whoever the hell is reading this you get to be my anonymous therapist now, have a gold star go buy yourself a treat after reading this crashout rant by some randomly chronically ill teenager, you deserve it if you’ve read this far.