#wil speaking

[patter-systems-inc]

You ever have an alter who for some reason can't contact anyone else in the system (aside from the very rare brief glances) except for One Alter so you just. Latch onto them? Because Im Love My Grumpus.

[titan-fodder]

WRITE FOR YOURSELF

WRITE FOR YOURSELF

WRITE FOR YOURSELF

WRITE FOR YOURSELF

WRITE FOR YOURSELF

create something that you enjoy. create something that you LOVE. because that’s what matters most.

[patter-systems-inc]

Chillin'

[titan-fodder]

hey guys! due to some really unfortunate events (like my email getting hacked), i am archiving this account! i lost a ton of passwords and having deleted the hacked account, i can’t retrieve them anymore (a spur of the moment decision but i was trying to keep myself safe). 

so i am now over at @crybaby-ink

titan-fodder will not be deleted, but after a little while i will not be able to access it anymore. i’m keeping all of my posted fics up here so you will still be able to read them (however, if you like them i would love love love you to tell me on my other account 🥺)

anyway, i really hope y’all follow me to the new blog because i appreciate you all so much. thanks for always sticking by and being patient with me. 

love y’all!

[old fic masterlist link]

[titan-fodder]

Hey, y’all. Just have a blog announcement.

I’ll start it off by saying I’m not leaving tumblr or this blog. That’s the bottom line, no room for confusion. I wanted to get that out of the way.

And, now I’ll elaborate.

I’m feeling a little burnt out. I’ve been trying and failing to write pieces for months while helping manage a big collab, and I’m just kinda tired. Stuff that used to be fun to write isn’t very enjoyable anymore (I guess that’s what happens when you write explicit smut for two years). I’ve always been of the mind that if you try to force something, it’s not gonna be great quality, and I only wanna put out good quality content.

But, there’s also more.

I’ve been back in therapy for various reasons and recently started seeing a psychiatrist. First visit I was put on Prozac which is cool. I mentioned some other stuff and he made it clear that he also wanted to look into ADHD management—something that flew under the radar and remained undiagnosed for pretty much my entire life.

A couple weeks ago I started on Ritalin, and like… I can’t even explain how much easier life has gotten in such a short amount of time. I don’t live off of energy drinks, I stay focused, I’ve stopped biting my nails (which I’ve done forever), my inner monologue is coherent for the first time ever. It’s incredible. Like, I didn’t even realize how much difficulty I was truly having until I saw what it’s like to have a functioning fucking brain. I’ve had problems with anxiety and depression for most of my life, but already, I feel so much lighter.

Anyway, all of that’s to say that I’m just… in love with the outside world right now. I’m talking with old friends, I am obsessed with my wonderful husband. And, I’m enjoying it. I don’t have the urge to write when everything else is so good.

I still have projects I’d like to keep working on. My Big Bang fic, A Force of Nature, will still be posted mid to late August, but it’s incomplete so far. I adore it, so I have high hopes that I’ll finish it. I still have plans for Find a Way even if it has been sitting in my drafts for months. I want to keep writing them. I just don’t know when the inspiration could strike.

And who knows? I could post this and then come back with a “just kidding lol” in, like, two days. But, I think this mood is here to stay for a while, and I’m okay with it.

I’ll probably post some blurbs here and there, maybe fluffy one shots. Really whatever tickles my fancy. But the updates will be slower than ever before (and that’s really saying something considering how unreliable I already am).

I’m still gonna be around to read and reblog and talk with everyone. This app is almost constantly open on my phone, so this is the same blog it’s always been minus regular-ish content.

Anyway, love y’all! Don’t be afraid to reach out to chat via asks or DMs ‘cause I’d love it 💕

[titan-fodder]

How does one

Focus on writing

I cannot remember how

[titan-fodder]

please can I have nighteye thoughts

*heavy breathing*

What kind of thoughts?

The kind about how he’ll make sure you’re taken care of—eating real meals and drinking water and financially stable and so, so comfortable in your own skin? Or about how he shows only you just how goofy he can be, cracking jokes and making puns and laughing with you until his eyes water? Or how he knows all your moods and what you need when you’re feeling down or angry?

Or

do we want thoughts about how he smirks into the mirror as he ties his tie when he catches you staring at him from the bed. How he teases and chides as he looms over you and presses you into the mattress, a knee between your legs only for him to tsk at you when you begin to grind against it.

How he fucks you so good and always puts your pleasure above his own, watching your face to make every mental note he can about what makes your eyebrows raise and your jaw drop, what makes you pant his name over and over again.

How he isn’t even a little afraid to use toys in the bedroom, not the least bit intimidated by fucking you with dildos even larger than his own cock, reveling in the noises you make when you feel different textures and sensations, pressing a vibrator to your clit so that you come so many times you can’t speak or wiggle or do anything but take it until he’s satisfied with your how weak your muscles are and how drool is spilling from your mouth.

Or thoughts about how he cleans you up so gently and carefully, under the spray of the shower, then wraps you in soft clothes and even softer sheets, holding you tight to his chest, letting you drift off while he strokes your hair and whispers his affections to you.

Those kind of thoughts?

[titan-fodder]

face reveal for like 2 seconds cause I’m starved for attention and feel kinda cute with the short hair

and we’re done