#will yapping

[arsynislost]

One of my friends fully fucking brought me like 20 old flash drives today. I asked for a few to put some audio files on so it would be a lot easier to download them on someone else's computer if necessary, and he brought like 20 lmao.

I only have like 8 now because another kid yoinked a bunch of em. And I gave a defective one to another friend because they wanted to use it as a prop or smth.

I love my friends tho lmao.

[arsynislost]

Would you let me crash on your couch for a few months

Yeah sure

[arsynislost]

*sets down opossum plush*

*plush proceeds to fall over*

"Oh."

"He's dead."

"He's dead and we killed him."

- random shit that happened with @the-johnhancock

[arsynislost]

Fuck zodiac signs, what's your favorite slenderman page

[arsynislost]

Theoretically would you give me chems

Yes.

[arsynislost]

I'm gonna write today! *Scrolls on Pinterest for an hour*

[arsynislost]

So I know it's been awhile since I've talked about anything Stardew Valley related, but I've been thinking and I wanted to bring this up.

Will is my main self insert here, but Vyra herself contains a bit of my personality that I don't talk about. In a way, she's part of a self-insert. I tend to do this a lot when I create characters.

Vyra is mostly a character meant to represent a few of my emotions that I usually try to hide. She's obsessive, deemed insane, and she's generally not a good person, at least, not in her own mind. She doesn't feel much love for people, and the love she does feel for people, especially Will, is very toxic. For my fellow LuLuYam fans, they have a sort of Lulu and Lucelia type of relationship, although in Will and Vyra's case, it's more platonic.

But there's another thing. Vyra doesn't want to be the way she is. Despite how she acts, she constantly wishes she didn't feel this way. She constantly wishes that she could love like any normal person, but she can't. She doesn't know how.

Vyra becomes attached to people who have gone through similar things that she has and shares similar beliefs to her own. This is why she's so close with Will, because she was in Will's childhood situation long before Will had come into the picture. The main difference there is that Vyra didn't survive. Another thing is they share a loose belief in Yoba, because both of them feel that if Yoba existed, then why didn't they help either of them?

Basically my point here is that Will and Vyra represent the duality of my own emotions. Will represents my trauma, anxiety, my experience being under the trans umbrella, and many other things. Vyra represents my obsessive nature and attachment issues that I, myself, am afraid of, as well as what causes those attachments.

I think I've gotten my entire point across here. I'm sorry for the long rant, but I wanted to talk about this. Thank you for listening.