#wistfullydead

[sicklylov]

isn't it so funny basing your emotions on somebody 🤣🤣🤣 hashtag dependent hashtag going to kill myself !!!!!!!!!!!!!

[sicklylov]

im actually not doing well mentally , boyfie hasn't texted n i dont wanna sound clingy but am actually struggling so bad

i feel so goddamn pathetic over this actually

[sicklylov]

sometimes i feel like an abandoned dog , craving' attention once it's brought to me , but wanting to run in fear of being abandoned again

[sicklylov]

tw: talk about sh so this is your warning

i dunno... to me it's not even the pain ? like the pain is nice sure. it's grounds be... but i love seeing myself scar up and seeing the marks all over me. the action of cutting myself isn't the thing that even helps the most. it's the blood. it's nice and warm and a beautiful shade of red. like yes the pain is great but i like feeling it after. under my clothes, when i accidentally touch it. i dunno how to explain it. it's not the pain that soothes me , that's for sure.

anyways... isn't it ironic that i'm afraid of needles ?

[sicklylov]

another day another feeling like a fat disgusting pig 😍😍😍

[sicklylov]

oughhhh gun to my head ouhhhhhhgggg finger on the trigger i feel sick ougghggggggggg

[sicklylov]

i actually hate relapsing so much. i feel so disgusting and pathetic and like a fucking pig. ugh but the pain.. i crave the pain :(

[sicklylov]

i've been so mentally down i lowk wanna kms 😇😇😋🙏🙏😇🙏 i've already relapsed with one bad coping skill lets hope it doesn't #get too bad i've got things to do