Neil Josten has only two modes: overthinking literally everything and no thoughts head empty. nothing in between. and I respect that.

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Neil Josten has only two modes: overthinking literally everything and no thoughts head empty. nothing in between. and I respect that.
I can’t wait until I actually get a full time job because when I do, I’m going to buy an X-Box 1, I’m going to play Red Dead Redemption 2 through a second time, and then I’m going to cry about Arthur Morgan all over again
I just want my new crop top to get here so I can put on some leggings and high heels and dark lipstick and sit in my house looking fine as hell.
i may or may not have just written the script for an engagement video set to Love Is An Open Door from Frozen.
so fucking glad i have a 3 day week jfc
i need those days to fucking do homework ugh
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today has been bad and good and mostly weird. i got my camera back which was FUCKING GLORIOUS and took a nice roll of film that i like and a half of another that might have some really nice photos on it that i'm excited for! which is always a nice feeling since i'm doing this film noir project that i'm really nervous about. i'm going back to ann arbor thursday and seeing explosions in the sky this weekend and being nice to my boyfriend since i spent this whole last weekend having anxiety attacks and way too many FEELINGS and i was just a pain in the ass as a person. i wanted to totally vomit all over my soul. also he has some really nice lights that i can use for my project! which is unfortunately due next tuesday so on monday night i can take a nice adderall and have twenty more anxiety attacks BUT THAT IS LIFE WHEN YOU'RE IN ART SCHOOL AND HAVE REALLY BAD TIME MANAGEMENT! plus long distance relationships are the worst and they suck so it's nice that i get to see joe for a couple days every week. also i'm a dickhead who should spend that time on my work but LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS ARE THE WOOOOOORST
i'm a whiny baby but for realsies my life is going alright and i just need to start taking my medication again so i can stop having panic attacks and obsessive uncontrollable thoughts and all that shit because i really cannot do a nervous breakdown with this INTENSIVE SCHEDULE YOU GUYS i don't even have time for my naps anymore :C :C :C