@wldbirds : “ don’t touch me. ” - / YUURI & VIKTOR
YUURI HAD BEEN UPSET ------------------- viktor’s first line of comfort was to try & distract him ; how ? SEX. usually , it worked. but this time , yuuri snapped at him ------ DON’T TOUCH ME ! ------- the phrase was enough to make viktor recoil , eyes going wide with . . . FEAR. he’s never been in this situation. all of his lovers only wanted sex from him ----- never expected emotional intelligence. but yuuri did , because yuuri wasn’t a lover. YUURI WAS A PARTNER. his fiance , to be exact.
the only real experience with a partner that he has is with chris. they were never more than friends , but it was the closest example viktor had. he could fix chris’ mood with sex. it was what he’s come to see as normal. so when it doesn’t work ---- && even worse , when yuuri actively recoils from his touch . . . ? IT FEELS PERSONAL. like he’s done something wrong. like he doesn’t have anything to offer yuuri here because he has no idea how to help him.
was yuuri going to leave him now . . . ? the one time viktor had ever said no to sex , chris left in a huff ------------ was this the same . . . ? that fear is clear in viktor’s expressive gaze. he bites his lip & sits back on his knees , simply staring ahead at yuuri. the logical side of his brain tells him ITS NOT ABOUT YOU , VIKTOR. yuuri’s upset ---- help him. but . . . how ? THE FEAR CREEPS BACK INTO HIS VEINS. ( he has nothing to offer yuuri. stupid boy. how long did you think you could keep this man before you realize how useless you really are ? )
he swallows the lump in his throat & glances away. ❛ please don’t leave me , ❜ he whispers , unable to meet his gaze as he lets his vulnerability show. ❛ please . . . ❜