#wolfdancerspeaks

[wolfdancer13]

Why can't my heart just let you go?

[wolfdancer13]

What even is my birthday? Its just like all the other days of the year why does it have to be special?

[wolfdancer13]

I just want someone to freak out about Pokémon with ahhhhhhhhh!!! Lol

[wolfdancer13]

EVERYONE IS ON FREDS CASE AND I JUST WANNA PUNCH EVERYONE!!!! HE WATCHED HIS BABY BLOW UP IN FRONT OF HIM!!!! LESS THE 48 HOURS AGO!!!!!!!! HE HAS FUCKING PTSD GET OFF YOUR HOGH FUCKING HORSES, CUT YOUR FRIEND SOME SLACK AND HEELLLPPP HIMM!!!!!!!!!!!!

[wolfdancer13]

My gf just came in showed me a tic toc about a guy they were begging his kid to pick up from jail cuz he was being grows and obnoxious. Then perclaims, This would be us!!

Me: why?

Gf: Well you'd get call call from a cop saying

"Ma'am can you please pick her up shes running around telling everyone she used to have a pernis. It was bring your kid to work day and when my son asked where her balls went and she said in the most sassy flamboyant voice ever, 'Well honey they inflated them and put them on my chest!' Please get her as soon as possible."

Me: *laughed for five minutes straight then starts choking, then laughing again

Gf yelling from another room now: Don't die!

Me: *laughing so hard I have tears in my eyes* YoU BrOke MEEREEEEEEEE *more laughter and more choking*

[wolfdancer13]

I'm *smack my head into a wall* such *smack* an *smack* idiot *smack*. Gods help me

[wolfdancer13]

So... i still can't wrap my head around the fact I came out to an old friend yesterday. They have NO understanding on anything lgbtq aside from gay, bi, and straight. Its still felt good to say out loud. I still can't come out to my family. They barely understand transgender this would be to hard. And my bio family... forget it! They say they are open and build up this nice facade but when it comes down to it they would try to bully a transgender person into staying with their dead name and staying trapped in their prison of a wrong body because its "easier for them". Them being my family not the transgender person.

Its just easier not to talk about my bio family they are a fucking abusive mess....

In a perfect world I might change my name...

Been playing with Ash or Melody...

But for the simplicity of everyone around me I just gonna stick with a nickname from my birth name that can be used for both genders. Its usually female though but what ever...

I have no idea how to navigate this... it felt so good to tell someone but also my home life is already so complicated... I love my family they are amazing supportive people... but they think using someone's dead name when they don't like what they are doing, are mad at them,

Talking about them when they where young before they came out, or the wind changes. It kills me so fucking much, like physically hurts. And I cant tell anyone why...

Idk what to do... i know there's like no one on tumbler so I can vent all I need. Though I'd just love one person who understands who I can talk to about this...

[wolfdancer13]

So I think I just came out???????