so being jetlagged and exhausted and on california time is an interesting thing because on the one hand I'm far too overwhelmed with the things I need to do to do them.
on the other hand I actually took my anxiety meds, and they were helpful. But they were also supposed to help me go to sleep. So maybe I need to take more of them.
but in the meantime I just spent some time hanging out with amanda and ivan and hank and john (by watching their videos) and gosh there is something so wonderfully COMFORTING about their presences. I have been watching their videos and engaging with them in various levels of closeness (friends with Amanda vs. I hugged John Green once because he remembered that time I livetweeted the first half of looking for alaska before I had to put the book down. I'm still not ready to finish it. Maybe in a few years? anyway.)
The moral of the story is that damn, I do miss and admire all of these folks in different ways.
Amanda, I would love to catch up with you sometime soon, btw, though I know you are crazytown busy all the time because you work full time and also go to school full time and I have NEVER been able to fully wrap my mind around that. You're incredible.









