DELUSIONAL.
The word that describes us. The word that describes me as an asshole, Loving you like an idiot wishing the moon suddenly change into a box of candy, And whenever she meets a frazzle, She can swallow one into her neck.
Why was everything so sweet, and beautiful, and romantic asshole? Your morning greetings became rainbow in my mind. Your photos that you sent to me, became a whole day dreaming those days.
Why did you make it so fun? Is this your goal? To make me hurt, To make me fell deeply in love, To make me sacrificed every fuckin pride to you, Like a slave kneels on her stupid king.
Is this funny? Do you like it? A fuckin stupid Chinese-looking girl worshiping you. Adoring every single thing about you. Laughing to all your sarcasm jokes. Crying over your back when you ignored her.
You are a villain from the beginning, And my thought is the victim.
* And the saddest thing; all those sarcastic words are my self-entertaining treats. * They are right. Love is only for idiots. And I’m one of them. To think you as the most beautiful creature in this idiot fuckin world.
- Bandung, April 2020.
