‘somewhere in between’ -5
We were so close for the past year -
Who knew November was something to fear....
Stepped back, you went on your way,
I just wanted to know how you truly felt- you had nothing to say.
I was conflicted, I struggled to let you go,
You gave no closure, never told me what I needed to know.
Still to this day I'm not sure how you felt,
I wonder whether you regret the way it was dealt.
I promised, I vowed, there would be no repeat,
But you've come back - here you are, I feel so complete.
I cannot deny knowing you makes me feel more alive,
Life in your absence, I had felt deprived.
I realize now why you matter- your significance to me,
I needed space and time to more clearly see.
It wasn't just the attention that I felt from you,
But the lessons I learned - a third party view.
There's no need to change, the person I am is good,
All those past times fitting moulds, I had it misunderstood.
When I'm with you I am more comfortable than ever, just being me,
Relationships should not be stressful, I deserve to live carefree.
You inspire me to build myself strong,
When I'm around you I just feel like I belong.
You walked away and a part of me broke,
I picked myself up, got through all the smoke.
Im not mad, it's behind us, friends why not?
The emotions buried deep, I'm no longer caught.
