#working pupil

[myblackmare]

I stuck the landing and that's all that matters.

[myblackmare]

"No... its fine... not like your mum wants to eat that hay."

[myblackmare]

There's this stupid girl here on work experience and i actually hate her so much. She was watching me in my group lesson with Dirk and the other pupils and urgh... Let me list the shit she said: - (At the start of the lesson) "ha let's see how this dressage thing goes." in a super sarcastic, mocking voice referring to Lily. _"Lol there goes all those other horses with their open, floaty strides and then there's just Lily with her short, choppy strides." -'She looks soooo out of place." Like completely fuck you. Way to be a cunt and point out literally all of my insecurities about my riding.

[myblackmare]

I refuse to feel guilty about how I spend my money. People keep trying to make me feel guilty about how I spend my paycheck but I fucking worked for it. I can spend it how I like. I prioritise and separate cash for Lily from cash for spending so I’m not doing anyone any harm if I buy an expensive saddle pad or bridle. 

Money is made to be spent and bitch if I work hard, I’m going to reward myself. 

[myblackmare]

AEA Metal Dice.

[myblackmare]

Great... So my boss called me in for a chat because people had noticed i was seeming really down. She proceeds to tell me "be happy, good things happen if you're happy. If you're sad bad things happen. Its a mindset. Just smile and be happy." Well thank you so much but i have a chronic disease that means neurologicaly i find it practically impossible to just 'be happy'. Jeez, I should just stop taking my meds and tell my doctor the cure to MDD is a change of mindset.

[myblackmare]

Two new possible schoolies: -Left: Choccy (aka Chunky man), 15.1hh, 15yrs, quarter horse, so obese omg. -Right: Dolly, 12hh, 9yrs, idk what breed, she's so tinyyyyy

[myblackmare]

Hogging manes is very satisfying 👌🏻