May 24, 2023
testosterone is crazy because I am getting bigger biceps while doing the barest minimum of movement....meanwhile before t I would work for over a year to not even get close to this size
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testosterone is crazy because I am getting bigger biceps while doing the barest minimum of movement....meanwhile before t I would work for over a year to not even get close to this size
worst part about going to the gym after work in the winter is my clothes are freezing cold from sitting in the car all day
when I do cardio I'm like WOW this must have been 20 minutes at LEAST and I look at the timer and it's been 7 minutes. hell.
two. personal
so my wonderful work ( and i swear that's not sarcasm i really do love my job and the sunshines i work with ) but also because it's a spin class/yoga studio/juice bar it means we try to be healthy and i have been trying to be much healthier lately but ...
i also struggle with working out in groups/public because i always struggle and well sweat a lot and wind up berating myself but, my bosses are awesome and encouraging, everyone i work with it super sweet and i am bound and determined to have a good time !
i packed a bag with extra towels, hairties, bobby pins, deodorant, lotion, lip balm and extra water bottles. it's also in three segments and we get to hang out afterwards so i'm choosing to believe in my positive take a breath side than my anxious they are all laughing at you side and i think it will yield really positive results ! so i'm super nervous but i've got my cute workout clothes and a positive outlook so i got this i think like 80% at least lol ???
i’m about the same bodyweight (155ish) i was when (epic god of bodybuilding) rated me at 21% bodyfat, and he rated me at 13-14%!
which means I have put on muscle
i feel very confident now about my ability to bulk another 15 pounds. like. i can.. do this? this is just, easily in my power.
I’m proud of that because it’s really hard and I did it. even if it doesn’t actually work in terms of making me Attractive, and all that, whatever! I achieved a difficult goal and I meta-achieved it so I can now achieve further goals.
in a way i feel disappointed, because I don’t actually want to bulk that much; today, at least, I feel like I will get where I want to be quickly now that I know what I’m doing and have nowhere else to go from there
I do have big goals in terms of lift amounts, but that’s complicated; having to modify my workout to avoid repetitive stress injury really, really interferes with increasing numbers on a specific lift even if I’m still building muscle.
voice is the next big thing, I think. I want to talk to professionals because I feel like I’m spinning my wheels fucking around at home. I haven’t done anything in that vein in a couple months. I’ll call around tomorrow.
<dance to mic drop while changing to workout clothes> <actually get exhausted by the time you're changed and "ready" to work out>
I’m so out of shape twenty minutes of light drills and I’m wiped.
/whine
wish I had the time/energy to work out. I love my body and I want to be kind to it but with going to school full time plus work plus eboard I just can't find it in me. 😞😕