I have been more or less a silent part of the tennis blr. I barely liveblog, I don't repost a lot. I like a few posts, engage with some blogs and just watch from far I guess.
I have used tennis as an escape from my real world. These brilliant athletes doing something I could never do. Up until a week ago, my work life was a message and tennis was my escape. Till the first week of May I was in a toxic work place and I used to watch tennis to feel something. I watched Jannik win all the Masters titles and thought he was doing one of the most difficult things in tennis and I couldn't though it out at work? (Thank you @lillitagger for your match archives. I was able to watch so much tennis because of you) This past month, when I finally left my toxic job and was stressed out of my mind trying to find another job, tennis once again kept me company.
Personally this week was supposed to be the best for me. I finally got a really good job. It was RG week and since I only start work next week, I would be home to watch any match I liked. But it has been extremely painful watch. I might be a Jannik fan now, but watching any of the players playing in heat has been painful. From heat strokes to injuries it has been awful. A days ago, I saw a video by Gill Gross on if injuries have increased on the tennis tour. This past week I have been constantly on the livescore page and the number to times I have seen MTO is concerning. Is this what tennis about? Survival of the toughest? I wish someone had the data of how many times MTOs have been called in the tournament, because I was not used to it being so high.
I don't know if I have it in me to watch more of RG this year, not because my favourite player is out. I still have my faces in the WTA and there are others that I like on the ATP side as well, but because it seems like this has gone beyond being tennis skills and become survival skills.
I rarely rant on Tumblr, but I guess I just needed to get it out of my system. I hope I can come back to tennis in a few days and find joy in it again. I hope everyone on here who is a Jannik fan knows that they can be sad about today, but he will come back stronger. Giving all of you big hugs! Thanks for being my emotional support group as well


















