#wow weird

[liomels]

oh to have a conversation with him during pouring rain..

[glaciesdraco]

I'm kinda sad we never really see Izaya and Shinra interact. There's only some school day scenes and that phone call, but that's it. Meanwhile Celty talks to Izaya in nearly every novel and Shinra interacts with most of the main cast, but never with Izaya

I know right isn’t it weird?? It’s almost like you’re watching the progression of their estrangement as friends.

They do talk on the phone one whole time!

[nightbleeder]

What do you mean ’The 100′ was a show on the CW that ended last year?  

[agyo]

i love one boy...

[1dhq]

Don't forget, Liam's Rollacoaster interview/cover will be out on 4 May too, unless they change it again.

i thought it was already out, weird!

[symbioticsimplicity]

I posted 1,017 times in 2022

That's 1,016 more posts than 2021!

166 posts created (16%)

851 posts reblogged (84%)

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I tagged 924 of my posts in 2022

Only 9% of my posts had no tags

#stranger things - 130 posts

#steve harrington - 118 posts

#eddie munson - 106 posts

#billy hargrove - 87 posts

#steddie - 63 posts

#punk!steve - 35 posts

#ygo - 33 posts

#batman - 25 posts

#carpe noctem - 24 posts

#personal - 22 posts

Longest Tag: 140 characters

#eventually daisy had laid herself down half in her kennel and half out of it just near enough to her bowl that she could keep quickly snatch

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Steve and Eddie's first fight comes as a surprise to both of them.

Its been a long week, neither of them have gotten much sleep due to recurring nightmares, the kids are all going into their own separate things this summer, Eddie has been out of cigs since the night before, and there's something Steve isn't telling him.

That's really the biggest problem right there. Steve seems all but allergic to being helped. Not only will he not tell Eddie what's wrong, he won't even let him take on other smaller things to help him out overall!

Its been so frustrating Eddie snapped and told Steve that "If he'd wanted to date a brick wall, he would have made a move on Tommy H."

It was a shitty thing to say and Eddie regretted the words the moment they left his mouth. The pain on his face was only outdone by the fear hiding behind it.

Eddie backpedaled to try to explain his actual problem, but he'd seen Steve's walls going up, which was something he hadn't seen directed at him in months.

He'd panicked, and he'd reached out to hug Steve, softly asking him not to shut him out. That all he wanted was to be there for him, for Steve to recognize he wasn't alone with whatever was upsetting him.

He'd only remained frozen a few more seconds before gripping onto Eddie like he was the last thing tethering him to this earth. He choked on one sob, then two before he crying into Eddie's neck and shoulder.

It took about an hour to get out of him what was wrong.

That day marked the one year anniversary of the last time his parents had spoken to him. They never technically disowned him, and they didn't kick him out, they just stopped bothering to interact with him at all. Almost like they'd forgotten they ever even had a son. Like he mattered so little they couldn't be bothered to even ditch him properly.

Eddie let him cry himself out, covering him in as many kisses as he could find surface area for. He knew it wasn't much, but he reminded Steve that he still had family with him and Wayne. And of course Hopper and Joyce and the kids too.

Steve was grateful for the reminder and finally explained that the timing of them leaving lining up with this anniversary was what had unsettled him so much.

But from having grown up essentially on his own, Steve had a tendency to try to handle everything that pertained to him by himself, as quietly as possible. He didn't say anything because it never occurred to him to reach out, even though reasonably he knew he could.

Eddie took him by the face and made sure that Steve was looking him in the eye before he spoke.

"Listen to me, angel. You've got me for life. Even if you don't want to keep going like this, I'm still gonna be yours. Friend, distant acquaintance, ex, whatever. There's nothing you can do to lose me now, you got that? You're not alone Stevie, never will be again."

Steve looked like he was going to cry again.

He didn't, he just pulled Eddie right into another of his world-tether hugs. But if he hadn't been so close, he might never have heard Steve's quiet "Thank you."

597 notes - Posted November 2, 2022

#4

I firmly believe that punk!Steve and babygirl!Steve can and should coexist together.

Punk has never been about following rules and being what you're expected to be. And for that reason it houses a lot of queer folk.

As he gets more accustomed to the scene, he finds himself meeting more and more people with unusual gender presentations. Things he didn’t really think of as an option. He learns that not only is how he feels valid, but its okay to feel that way. It takes him some time, and support (Robin takes point on this one, she's had a biweekly appointment to fist fight gender out back of the McDonald's parking lot since 7th grade, she gets it) but he lets himself explore.

He finds out that maybe his father's riged definition of what "being a man" is was wrong. He thinks maybe he can make his own definition. He enjoys what hes doing, and he's not hurting anyone so really its no one's business and that's that.

He learns that he likes lace, but fishnets pull on his leg and chest hair so he tries shaving that. He likes the feeling of being soft and smooth but its a lot of work so he really only does it as a treat. He puts baby pink laces in his combat boots instead of his regular ones. He tries mascara and immediately adds it too his standard makeup kit (its just a little thing but he got tired of stealing everyone else's.) He tries baby pink lip gloss and adores it. He paints his nails whatever color he feels like and leaves them until they chip off. When he jeans tear in awkward places, he patches them with pink plaid patches.

Even his jacket evolves with him. He cuts the sleeves and stiches them back up with the black lace hes cannibalized from a cast off shirt he stained. The back, which is made of music lyrics and nicknames of his scrawled messily across it (King Steve is there but its been proudly graffied over by Baby-Sitter), gets a new nickname added. "Babygirl".

Eddie took to calling him that when Steve took the time to get prettied up to this new level. He almost walked into a stop sign the first time and Eddie apologized profusely. Steve had asked him to say it again, which he did. Steve liked it, no, he loved it. It spoke to some place he hadn't known existed inside of him and quickly became one of his favorite petnames to be called.

When Pretty in Pink comes out, Pretty in Punk joins the phrases scrawled on Steve's back.

951 notes - Posted November 1, 2022

#3

Baby punk El this and baby punk El that. I love her to death but she's blossoming into someone else. So what about baby punk Steve?

Imagine Steve who's grown so much he feels like he's outgrown most of his previous interests and likes. Its hard to really fixate on cars and sports when every time you look at a car you remember hitting Max's brother with one, and baseball bats will forever remind you of fighting with one. Steve isn't remotely the same person he used to be, so who is he now?

Imagine Steve trying on all manners different ideals and outfits, flitting from one friend's style to another as he tries to find where he fits.

Nothing really clicks though. Nancy is too similar to what he already was, Robin's style only really suits her, Jonathan's is kinda... basic, Argyle just isn't the vibe really, and the kids are still coming into their own too. 

That leaves Eddie. 

Eddie who Steve could not be more different from, ostensibly. 

But when Steve tells Eddie about what he's going through and what his goal is, Eddie takes him under his wing immediately. 

He starts taking Steve into more metalhead spaces, lets him get to know what the community is actually like (They're mostly old friends of Wayne's, a biker group he used to ride with that pretty much adopted Eddie when he was younger too. They're also largely responsible for how Eddie is today). Steve is surprised by how welcoming they are, and how easily he gets along with them all. Since he's still relatively young and new to the scene, he's the group baby for once. 

They become another pseudo family to him, though one that he doesn't have to constantly worry about protecting, rather one that protects him (Finally the baby instead of the baby sitter.) Especially after the night they got him drunk and he shared a "funny" anecdote about his parents forgetting him at home when they went on a two week vacation (They all silently agreed that if they ever meet the Harringtons, its on sight). They're the ones that help him really come to terms with how shitty his home life actually is, the ones that help him channel the anger that comes with that revelation.

Its still not quite what he was aiming for but he loves his new found family. And hey he does actually like this. Even some of the music, to Eddie's utter delight.

Steve slowly begins collecting bits of clothing that suit this new change in his life some of them he's stolen from Eddie and it makes him feel more settled in his skin.

But the first moment he finds what he's been looking for comes from what was supposed to be a joke.

One day when they're hanging out, Eddie sings David Bowie's Rebel Rebel to Steve, jokingly, but Steve immediately resonates with the lyrics. He begs Eddie to play him the whole song (he has a Bowie vinyl stashes under his bed, what kind of gay would he be if he didn't??) and when he does he wants to listen to it over and over again. 

He starts picking up bits of Bowie's style too. Starts using Robin's eyeliner to doodle a couple little stars by his eyes when she's around, sometimes he'll borrow Nancy's a lip gloss and dab a little bit on his lips. Eddie starts calling him "Pretty Boy" instead of "Big Boy", and Stevie instead of Steve and he loves it.

The second huge revelation comes when he sees an actual punk in real life. 

The spikes, the color, the attitude, the makeup, all of it calls to Steve like a siren song. It takes everything he has to calmly walk up to the punk in question and ask them about their style, about their scene. They happily explain (punks and metalheads are practically cousins, and Steve is dressed almost exclusively out of Eddie's closet that day) and Steve falls in love with it immediately.

Its such a good mixture of the bright, energetic style that’s Steve's underlying personality, along with the sharpness hes taken on since the Upside-Down invaded his life. Something about having spikes on his clothes is comforting to him, like having his nailbat close at hand without the implicit threat it carries. 

The first thing he does is transform his letterman jacket into a punk jacket. Eddie helps him design it, and its an elaborate testiment to the things Steve has done and has been through. The kids help make buttons and pins and patches for it too, each new one like a medal bestowed on him for his bravery and his service to them over the years. 

He then swaps out his running shoes for combat boots which take a little getting used to since they're heavy but it feels right. They sit tighter on him and he finds it reassuring. He could also knock out a fucking window with them, which he finds out by accident so that's a definite plus.

He keeps his blue jeans but stops replacing them when they rip and tear. Its part of the style and Eddie loves to play with the little bits of skin that peak through the holes. 

He starts wearing actual makeup here and there and finds that he really likes it. The eyeliner makes his eyes pop in a way that everyone finds distracting and its fun. Plus Robin and Eddie both sit in his lap when they apply it for him which is a bonus. 

The only thing that stays the same is the hair (give or take a couple streaks of color here and there). It suits him and the change in aesthetic doesn't really affect his hair. If anything it actually kinda makes more sense. He looks like a greaser but more aggressive and he loves it. (Steve might not have chosen to become a warrior, but its definitely a part of him by now, and a part that has kept his loved ones safe over the years. He can grieve what it cost him and still love it for what it gave him too.)

His parents however do not love it. Not that he sees them often enough to really care what they think anymore, but the one time they catch him home his mother nearly faints and his father gets so angry it takes Steve back to being a helpless child again for a moment. 

He accuses him of all kinds of things, (ruining their reputation, embarrassing them, disappointing God, you name it) but its not until he starts blaming Eddie for the changes to Steve's persona and attitude that he snaps. 

Steve lectures his father like he would one of his kids, because he's acting like one of them. He doesn't even realized he's gone into full Babysitter mode until he sees his Mother's face. He's just so used to being the mature adult in any given situation it came naturally. 

His mother to his endless surprise takes his side, tells his father he's clearly a grown man now and he can make his own choices. His father somehow looks even more shocked than Steve feels. 

Steve doesn't rekindle his relationship with them, but they have an understanding. Which is better than he'd dared hope they'd ever have.

Steve Harrington is a punk, and he absolutely loves it. He has a family of metalheads that adore him and herd of children are somewhere in the middle and forming their own identities. He has a best friend who makes up her own damn rules, and a handful of friends who probably wouldn't mind the rules even if they knew what they were. And he's got a boyfriend who's helped him grow into his favorite version of himself yet.

1,128 notes - Posted October 28, 2022

#2

Punk!Steve who's music taste doesn't change in the slightest.

Eddie gives him shit for it once and only once because he's met with a "The most punk rock thing you can do is like whatever you like regardless of any group trying to tell you you can't be that way. Awfully conformist of you to try to tell me I can't dress like this and like Abba."

Its to date one of the most devastating arguments anyone has ever made to him. He doesn't say shit about it from then on.

1,153 notes - Posted December 5, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Can we talk about how good it is to see Stolas treating Blitzø like he would pretty much anyone else?

He didn't infantilize him, he didn't bend over backwards not to upset him, and he didn't overdo it with the dirty talk either.

To me that shows he's noticed a few of the issues and imbalances in their relationship and is working on what he can of them. That's a pretty huge step and I hope it continues.

While its made obvious Stolas is still a little starstruck by Blitzø sometimes, he's also doing much better at keeping his composure around him. He was flustered this whole episode, but he didn't ignore anything going on around him because of it.

When Loona kicked Blitzø in the dick, you could see him want to check on him but he shook it off and prioritized Octavia. When Blitzø gave him shit for not having his spells memorized, he fired back at him in kind immediately. When Blitzø broke the news about Octavia to begin with, he very much sets aside any feelings he has for Blitzø and goes into Full Angry Dad mode. And most importantly, he calls Blitzø by his name the entire episode.

He's still kind and nurturing with Blitzø too though, and he definitely still shows interest in him. If anything he seems more attuned to what Blitzø is actually feeling and why. Like talking him through his backstage freak out, or hopping to attention when Blitzø is visibly freaking out over his flashback about Loona.

To me it seems like hes finally learning what healthy boundaries are, both for himself and others. And he's adjusting himself accordingly. He still has quite a bit to work on, but seeing him make so much progress is lovely.

I've thought for a while he was going to have to be the one to do a lot of the leg work in their relationship due to the nature of Blitzø's trauma, and so far it looks like they're setting him up to be able to do just that. I can see Stolas becoming Blitzø's safe harbor while he figures out how to work through his issues. And I think for someone as lonely and in need of being wanted as Stolas, having someone other than his daughter depend on him like that would feel amazing.

Aaah I'm rambling but I think I see where they're going with these two and I can't wait.

1,237 notes - Posted October 19, 2022

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[vanishintoyou]

its snowing in the middle of april 😬

[nieloxychen]

@milliyum too late for pasta, just late enough for croquettes i guess!! ty bby💚💚