sleepiness is clutching me like i am a weak victorian child ready to be claimed by the mother of death, the lady of hell, and i am welcoming it because i crave cold, unloving touches, before the canadian winds take me away in two days
my brain keeps thinking about Soul and Heart pacts in Gods Calamity and the side effects of being a vessel for a crowned bishop
like the effects of the crown are often explored but i think it’d be funny silly if you experienced the Horrors (tm) in which you go through multiple growth pains, your body decided to go through metamorphosis but then went “mm, nah, let’s go back i want a different form” and forced your body to go back to a silly little lamb, and also you CAN have children but the process will probably not be normal and you will regret making the decision because birthing a god is not a simple process and also your spouse is not even a cat he’s an eldritch abomination
Heart Pacts ensure that you are one with your bonded god/vessel and that’s gay as hell sure but i think it could drive someone insane to know what someone else is thinking about them all the time, everyday, of every week and every second. You feel their pain and they feel yours so you’re forced to be vulnerable and let your guard down and you know what they’re going to do when that happens. sometimes gods are Not the Best (see: greek, norse, etc. mythology) and they Will fuck you up and abuse this little heart pact. And sometimes they’ll corner you in your silly little lamb outfit and stare you down and you’ll wonder why your heart’s racing and when Narinder smiles you’re like Oh Fuck He Wants To Hunt and you have a 3 second window before he pounces.
Soul Pacts are weirdly funny to me because it could amount to nothing in the end if you just straight up die. ‘Vessel don’t die’ and then they die and you have to start from Zero just to regain all the lost progress you made with your funny little bird. Shamura why’d you pick a BIRD of all people come on bucko. And then you tell them if you die then they’ll become a god and they stare at you with the biggest, more disgusting eyes in the world and go ‘You Won’t Die :)’ and you don’t know how to fucking feel about it because What Do You Mean By That and they don’t elaborate and proceed to tell you love ballads in the form of scripture and you just have to live with that. You literally go This Alliance Could Be Broken if One Of Us Dies and they go Guess We’ll Defy Death Then :) and you’re mortified by their commitment (you totally don’t have commitment issues and this won’t be talked about in couple’s therapy)
And then there’s Leshy and the Fox engaging in mutual cannibalistic behavior
