It's 3:46 AM. Came across a rb for a skyrim poll related post and it sparked up a genuine worry of mine.
Sometimes writing fanfiction gets to me. Like, I worry that I'm unintentionally ruining a canon character or they're just OOC. Seeing people post about hating certain characters and disliking people for writing them (or just voicing that they hate how a writer wrote a character in general) makes me nervous. I can't help but feel as if I shouldn't be writing these fics in fear of getting harassed (im okay with constructive criticism but not people dogging on my writing). Sometimes I think I'm ruining the characters for people, which I don't want to do.
It also sucks because some canon characters already draw bad attention for just existing in someone's story (e.g Ulfric Stormcloack). Of course, I'll have to write him in my fics someday but I don't think I could handle the attention he brings for just mentioning him. It's like that for any canon charac. i write. My anxiety spikes whenever I post any of my writing, and im always afraid someone will send hate my way. It's a genuine fear anytime I write TES fanfics (and fanfics in general).