don’t count on the stars.
why would i want to write about you when you act the way you do, you shut me out close me off.
you dont allow me to be myself and i thought that was a good thing i thought you would help.
but like all men do you brought me down. i hear the sound of my breathing shallow and slow. i closed my eyes and let the void pass by me, i feel the sting of your distance. rejection is all i know.
i keep thinking that one day it will be like how it used to, one day i wont think pain from you is usual, like a fool i daydream a good life with you insane enough to imagine its possible.
i see the stars in your eyes a cosmic whirlwind of mystery hidden beneath the sheets of your skin, unwrapped through time only i can see whats coming now.
this house this town wont last anymore, i walk down empty streets looking for your face, looking for something with a clue of you. the sea of gold is the where i ride to find you, where 5 moons lie, where no fear exist. will you take me?
to the place of wonders and wishes i know you dont want kisses so tell me instead whats on your wishlist? ill grant your wishes.
let me know what to do to make it to the place you talk about the place with only greenery, pure hearts and adventures all around. adventures that only grow you and never get you down
playing in your dreams forever will surely stall my reality but id rather dream of you next to me than wake up without you loving me.
am i crazy? is this wrong? replaying you over and over, desperate for you to call out my name, i cling to you i plead to you to love me the same.
when will i ever stop writing about you? my mind is tired and my fingers itching to stop but i keep on writing and writing and writing.
so cruel what the mind does to a girl whose met her match, i was on top of the world and you came & asked me “why stop there?” took me to space, taught me of celestial bodies i can only imagine, and kissed me then brought me back..
now i sit here waiting and writing, growing colder and more detached. when you come back i wont be the same, i wont perk with joy from the tone of your voice when you choose to speak my name.