Yeo! I can now send you asks because, for reasons I don't understand, sending asks now comes from my dashboard instead of someone's blog. To celebrate, here's some numbers from the list of questions you reblogged this morning: 6, 11, 14, 22, 25 :)
Jenny!! And here I thought it might have something to do with me finally changing my blog’s theme XD But whatever did the trick: YAY and double yay for you not giving up on asking me stuff!! *HUGS* Thank you so much, darling! <3
6. What character do you have the most fun writing?
I usually write characters that are a bit anxious and not too confident and yeah, we’re not gonna analyse that but there’s something about writing characters who aren’t like that, who exist with swagger and without apologies that is definitely fun. Whether they be assholes (Ocelot, Eli) or carefree, fun-loving angels (Willie, Flynn). And I ought to try to write more of them.
11. What do you envy in other writers?
The ability to plot and the ability to do research. I’m hopeless with both due to lack of concentration, laziness, and apparently a lack of criminal energy. The only reason In Your Starlight has managed to get so long is because the plot is entirely internal, i.e. prompted by the character’s feelings and reactions within a restricted environment. I would love to be able to write sprawling stories with lots of enriching details and thrilling plots but ... definitely not my forté!
14. At what point in writing do you come up with a title?
Usually very late in the process, sometimes only in the moment of being confronted with the title box when posting a new work to AO3. I hate having to find titles most of the time (like any other writer I know)!
I think Nature 2.0 was one of the few stories where the title appeared pretty early but then that’s the story that would have needed plotting and research so I unfortunately never finished it ...
22. Do you reread your old works? How do you feel about them?
Yeah. I do. A lot, tbh even though that’s not the popular answer to that, I guess. There are a couple that I skip on the rereads, sure. Those I was never much attached to even while I was writing them and which definitely aren’t among my best. But the rest ... they’re comfort food in a way. I still care about the characters and the stories and knowing exactly how they go, and knowing there’s no pressure of commenting at the end of them (which is a homemade problem, for sure), and greeting some well-loved phrases ... yeah, that’s comforting to me. I’m proud of (most of) my works and worked hard on them and polished them into the best version I could make them and even though I sometimes still spot stuff I would change now, there really isn’t that much of that.
I always hated this trend of ‘rolling over and showing your belly’ that a lot of fanfic authors, especially back in ff.de/ff.net days, did. To preemptively call their own work shit or something so people would be kind to them.
Publishing fanfic on the Internet is a difficult thing, because it requires finding that balance between ‘if you don’t like your work, why should others’ and confidence on the one hand but also a hearty resistance to other people not caring about your work or ignoring it on the other hand. It’s a tricky thing and I definitely struggle with it. But I’ve found it very helpful to become confident of my own work regardless of how others see it. Do I think I’m the best writer ever? Definitely not. But I know I can still be proud of my own work and derive joy from reading it. And I’m glad for the things I’ve put out there.
(sorry, this turned into a bit of an essay ... I just have a lot of feelings about this topic)
25. What part of writing is the most fun?
Definitely when you have a flow and the dialogues just pour out of your characters or your descriptions turn into a bit of poetry and the words feel just right and you remember that writing actually can be fun!
But I also find it extremely satisfying when I’m editing a scene that isn’t really flowing and tweaking a word here, adding a gesture there, maybe adding a few lines of dialogue to get better transitions and then it just works! And there weren’t even that many changes necessary.
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