#written queries

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Something that’s lost in the (very justified) “fuck the military” movement.

During the Vietnam War, most of the US soldiers were drafted, with many of them being against the war at the time of the draft. They were not the dropped agent orange. Many of them died from the long term complications. And when they came home, all of them were treated as villains. They lost their homes, their jobs, everything.

Think about the innocent man, being forced to fight a war he doesn’t want to fight under threat of death, comes home to be seen as a monster, suffers PTSD for years until he dies of cancer caused by agent orange

(Anyways fuck the people who chose to cause war crimes. I’m not sympathizing with facists simply pointing out that surprisingly the complex subject has nuance to it)

sure, i can concede that being drafted into the US military for the purpose of exacting war on foreign "enemies" is an act of cruelty done unto not just those people, but also draftees. however, i'm also not going to pretend that there isn't a significant portion of Vietnam vets who loudly and proudly proclaim their service, and the cult of personality that "the veteran" became in the US following the Vietnam War especially. i also think it's unilaterally false that vets are typically treated as "monsters" after coming home. i mean, i just need to gesture vaguely to the various ways vets get the red carpet rolled out for them; even excluding VA benefits, they are thanked and fawned over for "their service" (murdering people) and given discounts and recognition and and and. yes, there is nuance and the occasional unwilling soldier, but i am not going to coddle them when the institution itself is evil and a not insignificant number of them continue to shill out for it after their draft.

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a soft heart and sharpened fangs.

monstrous as ever, i gaze at you with earnest doe eyes. though i am the one in headlights, i can tell it is your pulse that quickens. hit the gas again. i dare you. it will do you no good. i am legion. you cannot kill the part of me that lives in you.

back from beyond the pale. too much left to feel and learn. i’ll say when we’re finished.

chimera! i'm called lots of things. Miss Viscera is a good start.

living an entangled life. entangled loves, interests, thoughts. reject the notion of a single, definitive choice. you can change. you are multitudes.

while i am not callous as a rule, i will bite if prompted. your prejudices will not find a home here. this is your first and only warning.

i tag most posts with one (or more) of the options below. i'm sure you're smart enough to decipher their meaning, but be brave and ask if you're curious anyway.

you are loved. take care of each other and yourselves.

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looks at you crunchily

whoa i need to clean my glasses….ur so pixels…..

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what kind of deer

piebald whitetail fawn :3 myehh

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Feminism is also ☝️ turning your penis into your pussy

(- @wholesomenessenjoyer )

i was so prepared for this to be hate mail LSJSIDJDH but yes. feminism is vaginoplasty (and then scissoring)

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(Tries speaking deer)

KREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE-

(Accidentally makes a demonic deer screech)

(wetter than i've ever been in my entire life) um. hi

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waow.. such bruisecore,,,

is that one of your own bruises? The one in your banner i mean

(- @wholesomenessenjoyer )

wouldn’t you like to know…bruises for tax

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"As a nonbinary person why do you want to distance yourself from transness?" Because I like the label of Nonbinary giving no leads. There was a time when my egg cracked and I felt trans. I came out as trans. There was no confusion about the direction I was going in. Male to Female. Everything was about being more feminine and getting away from the trappings of my past. Fast forward five years of HRT. I was femme presenting. When people found out I was trans, it also meant they knew I was born a man. They got into the trappings of my past inherently through the label. I found myself increasingly jealous of cis women because they could have traditionally masc traits and excuse them as Just how they were. For me that felt like a moral failing. A trapping of my past. My failure in not transitioning earlier making me so tall. My laziness in not changing my voice, or doing enough electrolysis. But why didn't I go through with it, if I was so ashamed of it? Eventually, I learned that it was because I didn't hate my voice. I just hated my voice as a trans tell. I hated how other people interacted with my voice knowing I was trans. The same for my height. My hair. My build. All corrupted to someone who knew me better. People could and would "guess you were trans." I HATED them being right, even when it was a positive in their eyes (it often was). And then I realized that I just. Didn't have to be trans. I didn't have to say it to qualify myself. I didn't have to use it like a pass to belong, while simultaneously outting myself. I can just be nonbinary. Nonbinary means I'm not a traditional Man or Woman. My experience as a woman is incomplete. It isn't traditional. I wasn't socialized female. But I certainly am not a Man. I have some traditionally male traits. I was socialized male. But I don't choose to be a man. I don't choose a gender. And because I don't choose a gender. I'm not Cis or Trans. I am also Nonbinary to loudly denounce the gender binary. The system that gave me so much pain for so many years living as a Man, and then as a Trans Woman. When people see me they still see a woman. I'm still on HRT. But now instead of offering up a personal shame (I used to be a man). I offer up something closer to my heart (I don't have the traditional experience of being a woman). People don't guess that you're nonbinary. Because guessing that gives them no information. So hopefully this answers your question as to why some NB people don't want to be associated with transness. My experience isn't for everyone. I am overjoyed when a trans woman embraces her transness and is proud of her history and her choices. But it's not for me.

hi there. i’m sorry you have had negative experiences with the label “trans,” a lot of those would understandably make you wary. i do think these experiences are rooted in transmisogyny, which unfortunately can occur regardless of the specific label you hold. i hope some of my dear friends and mutuals that are tma can offer some solace and comfort with their own experiences of transmisogyny while nonbinary, because you absolutely should have a community that loves and cares about your experiences as someone who is nonbinary in whatever way that looks for you. i’m also glad you find more comfort in referring to yourself as nonbinary over transfem/a trans woman, but my point in that post was simply that nonbinary is still a trans identity and in my experience being nonbinary, i find the erasure of that fact deeply upsetting. because, while i (like you) am nonbinary in the sense that i am neither a man nor a woman, i do find comfort in calling myself trans and have often found the self-distancing from transness so many nonbinary people often do is from a very narrow scope of what transness can mean (i.e., “binary” trans women and men). either way, i hope you continue to find care in your community